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2007-08-12T10:57:00.000+08:00

CUNK-27.LIVEJOURNAL.COM

exclusively, for you

2007-02-20T15:50:00.000+08:00

now i got a present for everyone, want to know what is it?

-wait for it, my dear friends-

yes my friends, this is where ive been while im mia here.
many of you might have known this, but some don't. so there, ha.

cunk-27.livejournal.com

if you're kind enough, do relink me (:

for the sake of..

2006-11-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

hey people! haha another post here!

seems like many people come to this blog and just give a remark that it's dead and not worth coming..

IT'S TRUE! =D

yup, i no longer blog here as often as i used to, so the hit counter has been there for very looooong. i blog somewhere else now, and if you want to know what is it.. please try to find it yourself or ask around, many people know it too. and it's not a private blog.

and many apologies to those who linked me, i no longer link anyone as i would pretty much wish that everyone would start to use the bloghost im currently using, hinthint. furthermore, i would like everyone who has my link now, continue to link me at this address but it would be a pleasure to see you guys link me at my new space(nup, i have a myspace, but tht's not my new hangout)

and again, sorry to all my former affiliates for not linking you guys anymore as i have decided to take a long break from doing all the blogskin making and visitors' content and stuff. now it's all just personal, me and me.. memememe! (: goodluck to all you guys out there yah.

so if you like, you can promote your blog here on my tagboard as much as you want. sheesh, im talking like my blog is an advertisement space, ah heck, who cares!

but if you do wna add me on msn or anywhere funny, weird, new, blahblah etc
my email is: cowsandkarmen@gmail.com

cya dudes and dudets around then. keep breathing!

2oo7

2006-11-04T14:22:00.000+08:00

3G'07
a new class (:

w/o any sqdmates

but

w fun people

3G'07
im kinda looking forward now (:

crazy

2006-10-22T01:05:00.000+08:00

it's funny how people know singapore, it's like when you say america, everyone knows america! and when you say japan, yeah sure thing, everyone knows where's that.

but,

when you say singapore to some americans or even australians that are closer to home.. they know singapore as ..

"i know singapore as the place Jack Sparrow went to"

ah how shitty to know that.

maybe im wrong

2006-10-15T21:31:00.000+08:00

there are times when people make mistakes, but it's time i have to tell you that you made too big a mistake. i know i wasn't right too, but i've said sorry, can you? i'm letting go now, it's time, seriously time, we sit down and talk.

sms me at the same old number when you see this.

14years!

2006-10-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

imma birthday girl ! :D

and that's why im breaking my record of not blogging here! haha thanks to all those who wished me happybirthday (: reallyreally touched cuz you guys still remember in the midst of exams! <3YAH ALL!

hush baby hush

2006-09-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

alright, for the smart people out there (and those whom i have told where i went),

y'all prolly should have guess tht i ain't blogging here for quite a long time.. anyway i'm here to say i'm alright and i'm getting on well, i won't update here frequently anymore cuz.. yup, that's about it.

you can tag and you can ask me where i went, but for those who know, please keep it to yehself alright.

continue doing my johari window for me please (:

overlook

2006-08-25T09:04:00.000+08:00

http://kevan.org/johari?name=karmenwong

haha! please go and do it for me yup. if u dont wanna, it's alright :D

crushed, defeated, dead

2006-08-23T21:12:00.000+08:00

i hate the incubus i'm having now.
you never did know, do you? you never did.

Health Tips

2006-08-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

1. Sleep early. Do not go sleep beyond 12am for children ages 18 and below
2. Eat well. Do not go on a diet that involves no food because that's BS!
3. When you eat, eat your fruits first. Because that's the correct way, go find out why yourself.
4. After eating fruits, then you eat your main meal. The fruits will detoxify or smth, and allow u to eat better.
5. Don't use the computer for more than 5 hours at one go. The radiation will hurt you or smth.
6. Wake up early. Sleeping in too late isn't err.. ok i don't know the reason.
7. Take up one form of sport. Yoga or Pilates or blablabla.. it would enhance your blablabla.

Don't ask why i blogged this stuff. Fine, since you are so cute and chubby and pretty and erm.. heaven knows what, i'll tell you. It's because i have to accomplish all these.. I'm still sick after 4 visits to the doctor, BUT IM BETTER NOW! (:

haha. anw go view this video.. agree with me the song is great! :D

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2315626875998182047&q=Jesse+McCartney&auto=true

):

2006-08-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

had physiotherapy today and it sounds like OUCH!

i think i'm gonna soon be forgotten. in this masquerade, yes, i believe so.

hi and bye

2006-08-08T21:41:00.000+08:00

i'm poppin' by [:

i ain't feelin any different from the last time i said goodbye, i didn't have any intention of coming back. but i chanced upon my own blog when i was visiting another site, and i saw the tags.

thanks everyone for your care, but depression during teen years is some stage i have go through, just like every of you. problems we face are different and come in many different forms, perhaps mine has been thrown at me altogether and i need some time to calm down and take care of things. i need to stay away, so pardon me for all the moodswings and tantrums and you all know.. something you all call "ap" a.k.a. attitude problem.

but i'll come back when i feel better, but unlikely so soon.

/
junhao: hi back. welcome to my dead blog. (:
jolyn: well i'm back for once?
rachel: i'll try to be positive. (:
b3: thanks bert for the entertainment.
banana: i'll try. you all dont need me. (:
xuanjie sir: thanks. i'll try. (:
shuyi: if i ever could, i'll become president and be the first of presidents of singapore to commit suicide.
ting: i'll try, but the One up there hasn't reply me at all. i just feel terribly lost.
amy: do i? i don't know..
b3: ok thanks again for the entertainment. ha.
sinhui: hello, thanks for droppin by. (:
anon: hi anon, might u reveal yourself to me? the support isn't enough to create miracles, but i'm thankful. thanks anyway. (:
hotpadi: thanks for the love, hugs and kisses for you too.
Mayping: haha thanks. but i don't think he makes much of a difference. haha.
esther: haha yah. thanks (:
hamster: aye no logic. how to kill me when im dead. kill the dead? sounds like an oxymoron to me! but thanks.
Mayping: yeah. so evil, but i'm worst.
ting: everything happens for a reason, but for what? i seriously need an answer from him, the Bible isn't calming me down anymore, i am terribly lost. and it's LOST. ):
/

Please help me. Amen.

DIE

2006-07-29T00:57:00.000+08:00

i swear that i want to die.

i swear so much that i really promise you i see no point now, so if i were to get my shoulder "disabled" or have to go back for so many freakin times, then i'll get my shoulder injured in school and ladeedum..

at least i get insurance coverage and i can rot myself away.
and i can make some people happy by getting rid of myself.

DONE

i will find something to kill myself in school. bye.

(just a note, i'll officially have a hiatus after this, no more updates, no more posts, no one comes, i will go)

ladeedum (:

2006-07-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

hellooo! haven't been back for a couple of days, i betcha no one missed me. bleh-

school is boring and life is sad. all we do is study, work, sleep. dumb life. i rather go all simple and be dumb for life. hahaha!

eh i want to clarify some things here
1) my shoulder is pretty okay, just that i need MORE CHECKUPS (:
2) eh, but okay doesn't mean can hit, lol
3) AND IM NOT SCARY!!

eh why some people say im scary.. boohoohoo. i wont name out who you two are la, but i ain't scary la. i know i wear this thick specs with my lousy aunty hairstyle, but im not scary! so don't shout when you see me and run away. lol. thanks (:

anyway, i won't be blogging much, pretty busy and tired coping with work (x

and to Ja&Dan, don't go lost in the river of love or we won't be able to find you back ! : D no need shy lar, can thank me for being matchmaker! lol.

work to do now, so toodles !

that silent night
you sang your song
told me you loved me
but now you're gone

i never wanted you
but i never thought you did
it's too late to say sorry
for our ( )s are back

so long so long

2006-07-20T23:13:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS SO GREAT!
with my sitting partners being so funny!

(: they're practically my fans lah!
because i'll soon be the next SingaporeSuperstar !

(: mayping and sean had been my background vocals you know!
and they're pretty good, but they're no longer available cuz they're working fer me!

(: we recently came up with a catchy tune that might take Singapore by storm!
and it goes like.. AH NEH AH NEH AH NEH !

(: i really love my sitting partners!
I LOVE MAYPING and i erm.. er.. is.. erm.. is OKAY WITH SEAN!

: D i dont want a change in sitting plans lah!

/edit

ahhhh ! ive been tagged by amanda.
i dont usually do these stuff but..

here goes ! : D

1. Do the following WITHOUT complaints
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged
4. Start your post with a "I've been tagged" then do this...

I've Been Tagged

Favourites
Favourite colour(s): GREEN. ORANGE. WHITE.
Favourite food: Garlic Bread from Hong Kong Carlton Hotel
Favorite song(s): All You Wanted by Michelle Branch
Favourite movie: Lord of the Ring triolgy
Favourite sport: Swimming or Cycling
Favourite day of the week: SUNDAY (:
Favourite season: spring
Favourite ice-cream: chocolate with coffee, or coffee with chocolate :D

Currents

Current mood: huh? okay lorh.
Current taste: blah? is blah acceptable?
Current clothes: hello kitty shirt with grey fbt
Current toenail: my skin colour. they match.
Current time: 12.24am
Current surroundings: in my room
Current annoyances: them.
Current thoughts: what to sing tmr ^^

First

First best friends: GOD (:
First crush: oh that hot teacher i had in pschool.
First movie: CARTOONS! i cant rmb which..
First lie: i am not a baby, and i dont love to cry when i was just a small kiddo

Lasts

Last cigarette: never tried
Last drink : unsweetened soy milk
Last crush: M.
Last movie: Pirates of the Caribbean : Dead Man's Chest
Last phone call: M.
Last CD played: WC 98' France soundtracks

Haves

Have you ever dated your best friend: erh no, they're all too good fer me
Have you ever broken the law: yah, but never caught.
Have you ever been arrested: no, and never will.
Have you ever skinny dipped: nah.
Have you ever been on TV: erh yep, for a short one min when they interviewed me when i was 7
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: yes.. that hot guy that carried me when i was small.

5 things you are wearing: tshirt, fbt, UNDERWEAR, specs and my wig
4 things you've done today: talked, sang, danced, drink
3 things you can hear right now: my keyboard, radio and my yawnings
1 thing you do when you're bored: sleep and try to ask myself are you awake.

my 0!
1) I
2) SPARE
3) EVERY-
4) ONE
5) !

/edit

DIE HARD

2006-07-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

ATC was fun for the 1 and a half day (:
[read. the duration of the camp is 3day2night]

i said a happy goodbye to all my groupmates when i was leaving (:
[read. my groupmates needed to fall in while i was packing my bag]

i wanted to have a good time at campfire with my group6 (:
[read. even if our item was gonna sucked, i wanted to have campfire with them]

i went back to mainland Singapore with a smile on my face (:
[read. i cried and protested to go home when Mr Koh insisted so]

i was excited about seeing the doctor when i was in A&E dept at Changi General Hospital (:
[read. i was bored and staring at the clock when i was waiting for my turn]

i was so enthusiastic when the doctor wanted to know how i hurt my shoulder (:
[read. i would rather be back at the campsite having fun at campfire]

i waited and waited patiently to get my arm slinged (:
[read. i was screaming curses at the doctor for giving me MC]

i was happy to see my grandma when she came to fetch me (:
[read. i wanted to cry and complain that i couldn't go back to camp]

i feel so accomplished when i reached home (:
[read. i was such a failure who couldn't do anything good at all]

i was looking forward to a good sleep (:
[read. my shoulder ached and my mum was scolding me throughout the night]

i had such a wonderful good sleep (:
[read. i slept at 3am after my mum was done with me and woke at 7 to go see the Chinese sinseh]

i was filled with zest as i was about to see the sinseh (:
[read. i didn't want to go anywhere else but lay in bed]

i was astonished to know about how my injury came about (:
[read. i don't freakin care if i got a blood clot or not]

i was alarmed when i knew that my body was weak with * (:
[read. i don't fcking care whether i might * if i don't do anything about *]

i was thankful for the sinseh giving me a bandage (:
[read. i don't give a damn cuz i aint with my groupmates]

i was super happy with my mum scolding me after the consulation (:
[read. i would rather be with my groupmates]

nevertheless, i am grateful to my TOs for bringing me to CGH and taking care of me.
but one thing i regret i didnt do..

thankyou Group6- MINTAKA of Area12 :D
nadiah, jihan, jingjie, guanquan, weicai, xinwan, jinhui, farid, azzri

u've brought me loads of laugher. especially when you made me AH MA ! =)
you guys even spread the news to almost everyone.. i was really happy spending my first ATC with all of you. although our group was really really small, we had loads of fun. thank you guys so much..
(although discussion for campfire's item was pretty crap.. thank you all anyway!)

& not forgetting Group5- URSA of Area12 :D
i dont know who u guys are but the discussion was good~~&bad~~ thanks (:

overall, i feel that my ATC2006 was CRAP

POTC (:

2006-07-13T02:02:00.000+08:00

yep. i've watched POTC(Pirates of the Caribbean): Dead Man's Chest just now(:
and it was a fairly good show(:

i mean, c'mon.

everything was nice! why the 3stars, i think the critics are outta their mind!

forget it! POTC-DMC ROCKED :D

now, it's all back to ~~harsh~~reality.

cock

2006-07-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

blabbers&nonsense

u've my well wishes. VANAKAM ~

VANAKAM = i am one, you are one, we are one!

so using the VANAKAM theory,

GO HOME-KAM = i go home, you go home, we all go home!
LAZE-KAM = i laze, you laze, we all laze!
SHIT-KAM = i shit, you shit, we all shit!

there!

let's all go VANAKAM !

forgive me

2006-07-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

i guess im gonna be keeping a stagnant blog, for a couple of days till im really free to blog again [:
but, i ain't on a hiatus yet.

after the breakup., i realised i have became much closer to my friends from outside school, evidence such as 500smses are dedicated to them a month, while only 200smses are replies to schoolmates. ewww, i feel like such a bitch that ignores schoolmates. maybe, i've finally realise that it's hard to keep platonic relationships with friends. so now that he's gone, perhaps i'll lose contact with the whole gang. sorry to everyone whom i ignored over this long period(i wont inform all of you how long). moreover, it's IDMI week now, and i still can't get used to being normal and forgetting about other stuff. so to my groupmates, i'm really sorry if i slack off, because at night, i wandered off to somewhere else yah.

IDMI was kinda so-so, at least it was much better than last year. i dont think i could manage anything now, with the emotional stress im under. thanks priscilla, xinyun, angell, weiquan and jiayi (:

i miss the times
i seriously do
but you told me to let go
i will let go
i will remember
but i will never forget you

because you told me you would never forget

bangHA- bangbangHAHA-

2006-07-11T08:18:00.000+08:00

had a rather interesting night yesterday..
it's over, i guess.

kinda sad yep, but still not crying.
i guess you know how i feel about this right..
haha, yep.

u're my sweetest fairytale (:

this is for you, thanks for the messages on phone, radio and blog (=

[heh- this is the reason why i didnt update for a pretty long time]

2006-07-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

sad? nope, not really.
happy? nah, not possible.
neutral? naw, not able to tell.

besides me.

i just wanna say smth my squadncos: peiting ma'am, guanghui sir, yaojun sir, ruiliang sir

thanks for being there lah, there aint many words available for me to put down how i truly feel. i guess actions would do it better right? so i guess i would salute all of you for making a change in my life. although the changes isn't prominent, but i have grown to be a different man :D

thanks again(:

pop goes the champagne,
and out flows the sparkling white wine ;D

it's july alr

2006-07-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

that music box that set by the side of our bed
that tune that rang each night before i sleep
that feelin i get when i see u right beside me

that's what i want if i could find "u"

youthday is over! :D

*puff a long long sigh of relief*

at least there's no more plannin and changin of proposal, haha! at least some classes enjoyed the game, i mean, they were laughin away and havin fun.. I REALLY REALLY HOPE THEY DID!

now now, forget about the youthday celeb!

there was the great, wonderful, FANTABULOUS councillor camp, although i was quite disappointed there wasnt any chalet! but nvm, we were having many happy banana days, didnt we, fellow councillors?! : )

and i had quite an eventful day today, havin much fun, but sorry d&j for leavin u 2 alone to get cozy ;P

\\ superstar&karen //
these 2 groups gonna be stuck inside my head right now, u just cant imagine how much i miss the pple there. :) u all helped me find back my true self, the one who's filled with passion, the one who's filled with desire to be one happy girl. thanks all the dudes&dudettes, ROCK ON YOU ALL ! :DDD

\\ baojia //
thanks so much for the talk we had on the last night of sc camp.

at the point of desperation,
all one could hope for is one person who would shine the light for her,
at the time when tears finally flowed,
all one wanted was just someone to give her a hug.

thanks baojia(: im gonna work hard from now on, and that's gonna be a promise. =]

\\ rocknrollsec2sqd-06 //
u guys have been with me for one&a half years and im pretty happy that u gave me some time to be happy, some time to be sad, some time to be angry, some time to be emotional, because that's what made who i am now, thanks. i promise i'll get back the passion, i promise i'll get back the attitude to work hard, i promise i'll give it my all! (: sorry to everyone as i've been quite a retard and dumbass lately, sorry everyone :(

\\ everyone else i know //

be it friend, be it foe,
be it merry-makin,
be it takin-revenge,
be it boy, be it girl,
be it sincere,
be it fake,
be it you, be it i,

let it be that we all love each other with all of our hearts, and there's nothin bad btwn us. :)
thanks for makin a lil change in my life everyday, everymin, everysec... ... everytime i meet u.

and that's the mid-year reflections, i'll see how i've changed after another half a year of torture.

LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE!

2006-06-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

tsk. my blog is getting boring.

why?

because i've been pretty busy&tired.

so im reallyreallyreally sorry for no updates at all, especially about my thailand trip. (and im really missing karen truckloads!)

im <3-ing karen! ;D

heh, school started, and i guess, that cramped feeling is comin' back. im busy with schoolwork, especially all the undone projects and more work. there's also councillor stuff and plannin' of youthday.

it's no wonder why many people find blogging a waste of time after their craze over it. one example is yours truly who's typing all this words that would fit better in a dunghole.

if i were to blog everyday, i think i would have fell asleep in class already. im just on the verge of breakin down today due to the enormous weariness i felt and of all, the MI Project was coming.

WHY! WHY! WHY!

why do others get new members while i need to work with 66.666666% of my group last year! DANGIT!
it's unfair! ):

nvertheless, i shall still do my best! ;D

im pretty ok with school, though many complained.
but im just plain tired, and i want to grab some sleep, REAL SLEEP *-*

i shall go disport myself, till the day i lay down to rest :)

OR MAYBE;

i'll consume.. HAPPY PILLS! ;D

KAREN(:

2006-06-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

my really really fond memories in kachanaburi, thailand((:

dayONE
it was a wonderful day! i mean, i had a nice lunch with my mummy, and made a fool of myself by sms-ing seeting, when i wanted to talk to amanda! :D i still have no idea why i did that!! anyway, met my group, and Karen seriously was FUNKY and HIPPY and COOL and STYLO and errr.. whuuuutever u use to describe the coolest popstars in town!

Karen R-O-C-K THE H-O-U-S-E DOWN !! :)))
- benjaminNG ( :
- cherie ( :
- zhixin ( :
- amanda ( :
- joyc ( :
- weixun ( :
- james ( :
- huiyun ( :
- chengling ( :
- & me! ( :

we didn't really interact much at the airport though, but i sat on the plane with weixun(:, bounce(: and serene((:
goodness, we were jolly and we really had fun, that's what i think luh. i won't give a heck if those 3 jolly ones found it boring cuz i found it nice!
at first, my impression of bounce was this noisy boy who always tell jokes, and DUH, he was one!
but, what surprised me was i had always had this thought that weixun is a very serious guy and won't really crack jokes, but HELL NOOOO! he was the complete opposite and could really let go and be sucha NICE BOY! ahhhhh KAREN de mah!
AND AND AND..
i always thought that serene was this really really pretty girl that was bimbotic and would whine at everything, but turned out she's REALLY NICE, COOL, SWEET, STYLO AND BEEEAUTIFUL!
xD really enjoyed time spent with her! lalala~

and after checking in to the CHALEENA HOTEL, we supposedly went "shopping", at 7Eleven and FamilyMart. FINE DUMB I KNOW! but the night market was so superrr EWWWW~ while the convenience stores offered me food, and nice drinks(:

and that night, those 4 came over to amanda and my room, crapped crapped crapped, took videos, and when we finally slept, there were 4 of us in the room! seeting shuting amanda and me!

dayTWO

watch this space, cuz it will be updated. : DD

%)

2006-06-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

wheepieDAY(:

woke up at around 7am
and realised im gonna be late again.
i brushed my hair,
grab my bag,
rushed out of the door,
just like yesterday,
and this just shows,
how my life ain't gonna change.

ooooh dear. my life is becoming a complete BORE x(

but i'll surprise everyone,
if i do put up a smile and laugh that hell off.

tell me more jokes, i love to feel happy! : D

binge

2006-06-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

haha hello everyone((:

i went on a binge of drinkin partly alcoholic drink today cuz i was feeling some blues, so yeah, that lead me to sleep, and i didn't do much homework at all.

BUT I WILL COMPLETE IT TMR!

but i guess i miss the times when i was in kachanaburi and could forget about stuff that bothered me back here in Singapore. needless to say, the truth is i found the real positive karmen back in thailand, but here in singapore, i've been blinded with sights of irritating stuff, leading to the passive saddistic me.

i really wish to forget.
i really want to..

I tried to read
I go to work
I’m laughing with my friends
But I can’t stop
To keep myself from thinking

i can't stop the thoughts running through my mind..
DAMN.

Father in Heaven,
please protect myself from being hurt by myself, because i tried to last night.

Amen.

back(=

2006-06-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

YOOHOO LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!

KARMEN IS IN THE HOUSE AGAIN!

yup. i am back from the kachanaburi trip, and i got something to say:

I LOVE KAREN!

gonna get real busy tom cuz there's really loads of homework to finish, and i'll blog about the trip another day yep. cuz it's gonna be reeeeaaal long!

and worldcup fever! SPANISH GUYS YOU ARE HOT! (i promise if i ever were not to get married, i'll find one hot sexy spanish guy to have fun with EVERYNIGHT!)

xD heehee. the trip was really fun!!

oookay. im pretty tired right now. shall sleep and get lots of work done tmr!

heck! i got 82 EMAILS!

- KAREN KAREN SHE'S THE MAN!(:

u just want everything i have..

2006-06-14T18:17:00.000+08:00

haha. that title of my post today was from what i heard someone reciting it on the streets yesterday.
oh boy.. that would hurt so much if it wasn't true(:

anyway i'll be flying off tmr to thailand and i'll be back next monday. i hope i'll be able to have a good trip there and i hope all those sick ones out there will get better and all of us won't get sick there! :Dget well mabel!

i sure hope, i will enjoy myself. *crosses my fingers*

but here's something to share first,

here's the exerpt of a song(*everything to me) by Hillsong United xD
thought about how much i actually praised God,
and how much do i really love and thank Him for what he's done.
so over my cup of cocoa, i declare to you, the Big One up there that..

I will never stop praising You,
For all the things You've done for me,
I'll be Yours forever,
Jesus you're everything to me.

So, i'll be flying off tomorrow! Please please please send me your love, care and concern, and not to forget, if you're kind enough to do so,
SMS ME THE RESULTS FOR WORLD CUP MATCHES PLEASE!

till then, buhhbye! :D

NEW LOOK! GEEK!

2006-06-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

I DON'T FEEL AUNTY ANYMOREEE! :DDD

because...

I GOT A NEW PAIR OF SPECTACLES! :DDD

and...

I THINK THEY'RE VERY COOL AND NICE! :DDD

and...

I THINK I LOOK SUPER HIP AND HANDSOME IN IT! :DDD

but...

I DON'T THINK THE SCHOOL ALLOWS IT! DDD:

:O how?!

aiyah who cares lah! just see whether teachers are approval of it during the overseas leadership training camp/trip lorh. there's just so many badminton people there, zZz, i think i'll get very bored. BUT, i shall not underestimate them, just in case they give me a heart attack by being incredibly jolly during the trip(: (*but i hope they do!)

anyway i slept really late last night, somehow like one of the latest during this two weeks of holidays, because i stayed up to stay tune to the matches, do up my blogskin and stay up since i'm going overseas already. hahah.. and just about that, im flying off on thursday afternoon, and that's the time my squad is having fun at the bbq!

)): AND I'M NOT GONNA BE THERE!

thanks derhui for offering to take pictures for me though, but it's alright lah. i think the camera would be flooded with P-R-E-T-T-Y pictures of our DANCING QUEEN, but i prefer food(*dead stuff) more to a human body! xD

went out this morning and spent the afternoon planning youthday and afternoon in KFC gossiping away with shuting and feliciakoo. gooosh! shuting is seriously nice to hang out with and she's really positive! she can just entertain herself and cheer us all up with her silly movements and jokes! sighsighsigh, too bad i'm not a guy, or i'll be a loyal guy and woo her for four years straight!

then i went back to school with felicia for her to have her cello lesson, while i did some homework in the canteen. afterwards, i went off to bugis and she went home(=

just as i went out of the bugis mrt station, i saw two people. (: ha-ha is all i can say.

then i collected my spectacles which i'm really happy with and had dinner with mum at crystal jade with her friend.

HOME SWEET HOME(((=

and i finally showed my mum my report book, and i realised, i didn't get any "C" at all! GOSH! IMPROVEMENT! but still, i failed my mathematics, and she was quite okay with me due to the number of "A"s i had, since there were like 3 crap subjects that gave me A, A and A!

)": suddenly, i feel like crying for not working hard in mathematics... boohoohoo.

OKAY I'M GONNA FINISH UP MOST OF MY HOMEWORK TOMORROW! SET! :X

heh, im off.
ta !

i'm furious..

2006-06-13T02:52:00.000+08:00

BLOODY HELL!

australia made a comeback during the last few minutes of the game with just one substitution! and not just a comeback, history too!

the FIRST GOAL !
the FIRST WIN !

brilliant. they beat Japan, and that's like only one of the two hopes we have for Asia.

i really do hope Brazil will trash them completely, just for the sake of Asia teams that's representing billions of people on this continent(:

and i watched the game(*almost all) on webcam! which my nice aunt aided me to give me the pleasure of viewing the match ONLINE! :DD

czech republic beat america too, with a brilliant score of 3-0 ! i simply love the idea of all those white skin, arrogant people being beaten. imagine their fans all crestfallen.. ahhh~ that's the way it should be!

the next match is on with italy up against ghana. italy is pretty strong, and i'm definitely expecting a win from them, but who knows whether ghana would give us a surprise by being all "strong" suddenly, i won't put much hope on that, but i wish itay to get in, which is of course!

more football comments.. TMR(=

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and if you've noticed,

I'VE CHANGED MY SKIN(((:

so comment! haha, thanks!

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gonna sleep now, since there's the youthday comm meeting tmr at 10am. ahhhh.. im tired. alright, till tmr evening, TATA :D

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u all must tag when u come! :)

oops =X

2006-06-12T14:37:00.000+08:00

damn. i reached an impasse about what to do.

someone help me please~

[edit]
when all seems down,
smile,
even though your heart is aching,
smile,
because you never know how far it'll go.

thank you.
[/edit]

hrmm..

2006-06-12T13:43:00.000+08:00

[[. GRABuCLOSE x)

i went out yesterday and it proved to be rather fruitful. was at church in the morning with a seemingly boring sermon, then i went with granny to beach road to purchase several stuff i needed for the overseas trip plus personal stuff.

i like my ORANGE shirt(:

then i went over with granny to Bugis, and i made a new pair of spectacles cuz my aunty ah-ma ah-so black framed specs broke, and i kinda like the new frame, quite sporty and cool xD but i think it won't be allowed in the all so mighty and strict dunman high.

then i went to downtown east costa sands for my class chalet! it was quite fun considering that most of the girls gathered in one room and played lots of silly games. and we watched nanny mcphee too! :D

it's fantastic! fine, i know it came out quite a LONG LONG while ago, but still, the charm of the fairytale is everlasting, making me LOVE IT! nanny mcphee turned so pretty at the end of the show! *swoons*

the bbq was pretty fun, i was the one that kept poking the pokpokgei (*chicken), and we all had quite fun afterwards taking pictures that were really retarded. LOL xD i can't wait to get my hands on them and start photoshopping man! haha!

and i got home with xiaowen giving me, yihern and shien a lift to bedok mrt, which was quite a big help! thanks xiaowen(: and shien and i alighted at paya lebar while yihern had to take all the way to tiong bahru, poor him, but at least he's a guy. took a cab home and reached home on the dot at 11pm, with my mum giving me a BLAH face and my granny naaaaging away to tell me to wash my clothes, (*but seriously, she helped me wash them this morning)

anyway it was someone's special day yesterday! :D

none other than yousi! damn, i couldn't get my message to her yesterday via hp, everytime i send, it was message sending failed. but here's what i wanna say to her:

hello(: happy birthday! grew older and sexier than me already! may all ur wishes come true and have a really fun filled and funkaye birthday! u're a great friend and may u prosper into someone with bigger boo*s and firmer bu*t! haha. stay happy, and crazy! :DDD

so HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HERE TO YOUSI! =D

2006-06-10T09:34:00.000+08:00

and the score was 4-2!
COSTA RICA MANAGED 2 GOALS! ohemgee~

hehheh. this means i won a nice lil sum of money of 5 cents(:
thanks Shuyi! HAHAH..

gonna go for the police carnival later. and im feeling kind of sick,
so i missed my guitar lesson this morning. alright..

so where are all of u?

i'm helpless la.
so why even bother to care? because i don't give a damn. and i'm worth nothing, so what's the point?

it's starting..

2006-06-09T23:40:00.000+08:00

FIFA World Cup 2006 Germany is gonna start in just a FEW minutes time..

(a check on the official site..)

20minutes more!

19minutes more!

ahaha. forget the countdown. the opening of the match is kinda BOOOORINGGG! :D

ohwell, the match is much more interesting. gathered up my spirit and good mood to catch the show. i wish i'll be able to hear a loud and storming "GOAL!" if either country scores.. man, it'll be so nice to see the nation united again! LET'S MAKE SINGAPORE THUNDER!

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it's pretty interesting to see how certain people get REALLY EXCITED about world cup, and i mean REALLY! well, basically cuz i heard them rant on about how soccer is so dumb when it's all just about human and a BALL. can't really get that well EXCITED because well.. something happened la!

but it's real nice to see all of us have a common topic to talk about, while i'm still half awake due to something that happened just now.. i really want to say a BIG THANK YOU to all those who tried to cheer me up in ANY WAY though it's likely, and really most likely, know that i am still not that happy. BUT REALLY, i am gonna thank you all. and you are appreciated if you tried.

for those who tried to make me sad, angry or whatever.. lols. it's alright. i dont really wish to condemn you from my life or anything but just dont do it too often cuz my tolerance level isn't that well yet, HIGH.

for those who wished me to make him/her happy, im sorry but i have never been in a good mood to cheer anyone up for a really long time. and please forget what i've said. thanks.

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back to WC06

9minutes more!

CYA BACK LATER! :DDD

days of our lives

2006-06-08T13:09:00.000+08:00

it hasn't been a hectic week, and i seriously wished it had.

with only homework, revision and cca matters on my to-do list, i got back to that pitiful state where i'm all self-indulging. since there isn't much to think about, i beginning to think about other stuff.

i don't care who gives a shit about me, because i would pretty much like to siphon out these thoughs and just be more "empty" than "filled". just like they've said, ignorance is bliss.

the world is just so filled with things that could really make us think about for a long time. and it confuses us, or sometimes makes us mad. it's getting complicated.. and i am seriously tired.

what people say to me now is just so clichely common. everyday, they produce the same words and lines.

it's me, not them.

i'm getting insane, while they're still having their sanity.

i better try to do homework and revision admist my playtime and tvtime. (or shouldn't it be the other way around)

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we were who we are when
we could be lovers, but now it's too late,
cuz i'm no longer u're friend.

thinkin' of you..

dahh~ whuuuutever. buhbye.

im on cloud nine

2006-06-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

she said it again to me, i wonder who is jealous?

{§tå®s thåt §hÏñè tøgëthé® ås øñê} 3x24hrs =D says (10:08 PM):
i love you

I LOVE YOU TOO DARLING!

god made me a HAPPY MAN

2006-06-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

this i would never forget..

{§tå®s thåt §hÏñè tøgëthé® ås øñê} go BRAzil says (8:37 PM):
i love you

who's jealous? she smiles at me everyday((:

worldcup06 germany

2006-06-06T10:54:00.000+08:00

let's get a bit of soccer crazy by listening to the songs la(:

source from wingz(:

ENJOY!

all in this world

2006-06-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

if one word could describe it all,
then i no need for this book of words..
cuz all i need to say is..
DAMN! :D

today was quite a fun day. i overslept 2 times in a row, and nearly 3. really tired la.. YAWN.

first, went to school to get the kanachanburi(argh i cant geddit still!) team bag done, =X i didnt do much actually.. sorry and thanks to my grpmates. KAREN(:

then had discussion with chengqian and weiquan over what to do for the chinese MV project, and we settled on a BRILLIANT idea! i think it'll work, really! hahaha. though our discussion was actually just sitting in the library and watching soccer clips.

and now, im more convinced that BRAZIL WILL TAKE THE WORLD CUP BY STORM!!!
(and to CROATIA, AUSTRALIA, JAPAN, FRANCE, SWITZERLAND, KOREA REP AND TOGO, BRAZIL IS DEFINITELY IN THE Q-FINALS BEFORE ALL OF YOU!)

haha. oops. going a little soccer insane.

and after lunch at KFC with my nice macho groupmates, i went off to kew green to meet up with yousi, jiale, yulin and yufen to play. xD man they're so way so cute. especially our very own dancing queen, DAWN LEE JIALE(:

and i came back home, watched a few korean drama, and i want to sleep now, so that i could wake up BRIGHT AND EARLY tomorrow to do homework lest my mother YAKYAKYAK at me.

hrmm. the use of colours is definitely refreshing to this dull blog of mine.

=D ta !

030606

2006-06-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

it's not a matter of being together,
it's not a matter of seperation,
it's all about that unspoken mutual feeling we gotta have with one another.
because right now, that's the one that matters.

but we'll still congregate, in different groups,
yeah, but we're going to be labelled as one, still.

and if these words would make you uds how i feel this way,
then this is my last request,
would be reflect on urself before holding on to another.

let me leave here, and go to sleep.
/
gosh it had been one looong day for me!
ate breakfast with amy, jiale & ruixiang at plaza singapura macdonalds.
went for cip in the morning, handled rejection quite toughly )-"-(
then met some of the rest around dhoby ghout station, and talk talk talk..
then we went to walk walk walk..
and again we talk talk talk..
then i went to find mum.

marina square was so superrr full! probably because of GSS.
then the tickets for the show was kinda either sold out or the timing ain't quite right..

excuseee meee?! "Over The Hedge" at 11.55pm?! jokin' la sista!
so we went to eat instead, and damnit,
i was the ONLY one around in school uniform. took off all my badges and stood in plain white tee plus skirt. so HIP mann~

now im back home(:

guess i'll be staying home to complete one stack of work tmr..

i just wanna tell any of my squadmates, if they are reading this..
ohemgee, i am so friggin irritatin and i totally suck big time!!
tell me all the hate you feel such as "SUCKER" on my tagboard ok?
im so damn sure ~~some~~ALL will have truckloads of them. ladeedum.

together as one?
just count me out,
and it'll be..
FOREVER AS ONE.
(be gone.)

heh. ta !

hey-tsk

2006-06-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

my spectacles BROKE this morning. DAMNIT. and i was one of the three blind mice for the whole morning&afternoon.

PHEW! i got an extra, just-there-when-i-need-it spectacles! :D saved my day!

so i went to play basketball with shuyi&weicong. and ho, we did have one hell of a time. especially for myself, the period when i went totally ZONKERS! really really had a good time with them, ROFL-ing away~

then sat on the rockclimbing thing near the court after we drank some stuff at the Community Club, gosh.. really saw the world in a different way, because of shuyi's influence, haha. i can't really say that it made my anger subside but it somehow reminded me of what's are the things in my life that makes me happy, instead of what makes me go real snappy.

so i deleted the 2privateblogs i had, and now it's all down to this now(:

cip tmr, then se concert. HOMEWORK. i need to finish it soon!

where'd you go

2006-06-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

Where was the romantic you
the one who tells me how you truly feel
but i must confess i miss the old you

Whenever im alone with you
you make me feel like im home again

Do you expect me to wait here?
along with my tears and fear
or have you already given up the pursuit
and wish me to be gone
i supposed it wasn't meant to be this way

You only came to break my heart, sweetheart,
i can tell by the way you walk away

if you wanna go,
please tell me so.

i guess i'm missing you,
by the way you're tugging my heartstrings.

i better start on my hmwk soon, i want to finish it before i go to class chalet and leave for thailand. there's plenty to be done. shan't think too much about other stuff now, feeling ~~sad~~weird now.

i dont wanna care so much about X now, probably cuz i dont want to have any feelings for it anymore. X simply changed too much of me, it took away some stuff from me, and it gave me some lessons too. yet, X doesn't give me a sense of achievement, or rather sastifaction, to be in and be proud of. it never occurred to me, but X has just been a place where i go to waste a few hours of my life. X probably changed several people's life in a positive manner, i know that X too has given many so much hardships that they choose to give up in it. For me, X isn't something that would allow someone that has already experienced so much shit to grow and mature into a better person. X might be of great help to many to realise their true potential and how to be a good person. But me? Through X, i find that there are much more crap to life than what i have already see the world in. X didn't gave me any stress, it gave me somehow more stuff to comprehend than what i already have to know. X isn't just like any other thing that could bring you joy where the people everywhere there would really make you smile and you'll remember it for life. People in X treat each other differently. It's true, like how someone said to me, "Birds of a feather flock together", many get left out, many get hated, while some get popular and get liked by everyone, and some just stick around to follow the crowd. It's normal, isn't it? For some to get worshipped, while some are treated like trash, or even nothing. People say that X would make people understand each other more and learn to cherish each other, but if it is true like that, why is there the presence of the hate so evident? Some are those who are hated, due to their personality and attitude, some are ignored, because they don't speak much, some are disliked, due to their actions and beliefs, some are worshipped, simply because everyone likes their way of thinking. I don't believe that everyone in X has grown and managed to be all the typicals who loved their years spent in X. People leave and go in X, it's like one never-ending play, where the plot is so cliche and everybody fits a stereotype of a range of characters. Some are the heroes who do all the work, some are the drama kings and queens who are there just to be dramatic, some are the selfish ones who couldn't care about how the play should run , some are those morons who just don't give a damn to what's happening, because they have been put inside the play for no apparent reason and they disliked it to the core. What i write here about X would probably gain me quite number of criticism, and might probably defame me to a bit where by i'll soon be kicked out of X. It doesn't matter anyway, like i said, people leave and go in X, so there is no point in dwelling in the past, because if i do, there would be no future for me. I don't need so much recognition, i don't yearn for recognition, because what i truly want isn't recognition. i don't need people to say "hey! yay! she's here!", neither do i need people to waste their saliva spitting "Yuck. She sucks, i don't like her. I get angry just by lookin at her". I seriously, do not need all these stuff. I have no idea why there are people in X who thinks i do much, because what i really do, is just bring a few pieces of paper to X, and that's it.
I haven't been putting much hope in X to find true friends, to find people i could really pour my sorrows to, because the people i have met in X, haven't been on the same frequency as me. I'm not trying to say they're not mature enough to talk to me, but all i'm trying to say, there is no comfort zone i find when i am talking to them. I can already expect what they're gonna say if i were to say how i feel, and the problems i faced, all they'll reply is probably:"It's alright la.." or "It's nothing much la.." or "Nevermind one la..". I know those are usually what i say, but if i were to say what i truly feel, what i comment or compliment or degrade would probably make several people angry with me. Why? Of all the time i'm in X, i'm constantly bothered with problems i just want to don't care, but yet, that humane and more foolish part of me just collapse every part of me and makes me to someone who might rant on there is a way to everything, so believe. True, the ME as i am believes in that, but somehow in some situations, there probably isn't any way, so what's the point in remaining positive when it doesn't helps. I tried to endure it long enough, but towards this dead end i'm walking in to, i just hope there is some ladder that is finished in construction when i reached the ultimate end. I am still unchanged. And i am definitely unhappy in the vicinage i'm in. I'll probably make everyone proximate enough to be completely fed up with me. All in all, i'm sorry if i failed you, i dislike X, period.

i typed this in a chunk of words cuz i know many wouldn't be bothered to read this if it was like that. And since it was like that, i'm happy to say i spit out my thoughts. a public blog with just show and no content, sheesh, then what's the use of this weblog? an evidence of popularity? give me a break.

and this will keep me going;

"Although the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it."
-Helen Keller(1880-1968)

all in all, some people are bless with bliss forever, while some do have some bad luck.

COWSANDKARMEN

2006-05-31T21:12:00.000+08:00

GOSH. HE WAS SO EFFING CUTE WITH A CHAODA FACE!

haha. that was random(:

aiyooo. this week is busybusybusy. had training course, gonna have take5 deco comm meeting, date with cheryl&kaiying&chloe, guitar lesson.. and a Huge pile of HOMEWORK, and i meant Huge with a SUPERRR BIG "h"!

training course
hrmm. fine, i didnt endure much, fell out on the first day many times cuz my bloody shoulder just made me "Ooooh!", and the deeeeeepHEAT made me go "Aaaaaaaaaah!" next. the feelin so shuang man.

firstday was quite okay, we got a long drill session throughout the whole day, whereby i just couldn't get tukar haluan & disembelang(dont pick on me for the spellin, i cant rmber!)
ARGH. but the most idiotic thing i did on first day was when i fell out to drill the squad for a lil while and i pronounced some words pretty.. erm.. FUNNILY!

just like how guanghui sir said, FORGET IT LA! :D

cant comment much on PT much though, wasn't with the squad much, but i think.. AIYA.. save it for later. HEE.

then the rest.. i can't remember! too tired. SENILE ALREADY!!

secondday was superrr, yet lousy! know why? the circuit pt was uber fun, haha. alright i sound saddistic, while the rest, i was quite PETRIFIED. i think i sneezed quite a bit due to NO1. the fucking dust in the air we were at NO2. the stupidity of me eating 2 tablets at one go when it was supposed to be just ONE! ahaha forget about it okae(:

then there was drill, at one point we managed to do everything quite alright, and i meant ME, yes the bloody effing idiotic bitchy selfish girl who actually got a green badge on her left sleeve.

THEN THERE WAS PT. peiting ma'am, guanghui sir & ruiliang sir played missing with us, because of several reasons la. but before the "missing" game actually started, i fell out to apply, yes again, deepHEAT, yes i know i am a slacker, to my shoulder.. peiting ma'am and haojun sir were really funny when they were conversing and thinkin about their past. thenthen, the MOST FUN PART WAS WHEN I WAS PUSHING zhanjie and guanquan along.. haha, both of them very cute leh! especially zhanjie! :Dzhanjie! must must must talk more!

CAMPCRAFT!!! fun. those who aren't any part of uniform groups.. today, we.........

ERECTED A FLAG POLE!

it was bloodily cool.. was in the same group with guiju, weicong, zhanjie and JIALE! everyone were very funny! brighten up my spirit quite a bit, then it was VERY FUNNY when zhanjie was like, one minute wanna die like that, next minute calm&on, just run like nothing happened.. woah, i like that attitude and spirit. shall adopt that as my approach to MATHEMATICS. xD (FINE. NO LINK. LOL.)

and bersurai parade. blahblahblah~ whywhywhy~ stress ah!
though it was supposed to be the minimum, i still feel quite unright about it, or more like unjust. AH.
don't worry all okae, especially SEETING!, you will get it the next time, SURE! (I PUT YOUR NAME BIG BIG HERE LEH!)

and interaction. i didn't feel it was much of an interaction lah. but relax lor.

and after dinner at kfc, shuyi and i were walking to this busstop, and there was THIS man who was LYING DOWN facing the LONGKANG, and i thought it was some sort of siaotingtong preying on pple who stop or some CORPSE, so i RAN OFF, while shuyi was still lookin and lookin at it and RAN OFF TOO when i RAN.. piang eh, scary leh. stupid la, he was only sleeping. i heard shuyi said white stuff beside him, first thing that came to my mind was: WHITE FOAM AH! HE DIE AH! :O

and happily home now. WANNA SLEEP LAH.

i guess, you don't pursue anymore. gah.

beautiful

2006-05-29T15:21:00.000+08:00

found this when i was reading a book you gave me.
read the stuff you wrote behind this piece of paper..

and i can't help but miss ---

dead cow = yummy steak

2006-05-29T12:28:00.000+08:00

hohoho(:

i got my very own guitar already! ooh la la~

manohman! 2-3 more lessons, when i finish up with notes, then CHORDS HERE I COME!

hahah that's about it. i'm off to do some homework and revise for traning course tmr. ah!

rmber to cook me rare when im dead cuz i like steak like that =]

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if time could bring us back,
to the time when we hold hands,
to the time when we hug again,
i'll cherish those moments more for sure(:

i'm torn between you and him.

bona fide tag

2006-05-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

i feel so bored, so im doing zhenzhen's tag.

AHHH. i got tagged, lols.

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions below before you write and tag 5 people to do this survey.

1. zhenzhen(:
2. melvin
3. shuyi
4. seeting
5. mayping
6. feliciakhoo
7. cherylquek
8. yousi
9. jiale
10. chuankai
11. sean mulyadi siman
12. kelly
13. michelle
14. yilin
15. my(:
16. jingjie
17. ruixiang
18. shuting
19. gekteng
20. junjie

how did you meet 14? {YILIN}
- err we were classmates HAHA

what would you do if you never meet 1? {ZHENZHEN}
- i'll never be motivated to do hmwk and i won't be using the comp so often!

what would you do if 20 and 9 dated? {JUNJIE & JIALE}
- ohemgee if this really happen i'm gonna ROFLMAO!

did you ever like 19? {GEKTENG}
- larger than life, all dude and dudettes.

would 6 and 17 make a good couple? {FELICIA KHOO & RUIXIANG}
- hrmm. if they do know each other, it would so CUTE:D

describe 3. {SHUYI}
- cutest clsmate&sqdmate&neighbour so far in my life.

do you think 8 is attractive? {YOUSI}
- WAH I CAN'T IMAGINE HER ATTRACTIVENESS!

say something about 7. {CHERYL QUEK}
- i miss her so much that im gonna cry when i see her again!!

do you know any of 12's family members? {KELLY}
- i know WHAT they are, but WHO they are, err maybe not :D

what's 8's favourite? {YOUSI}
- cute&pretty girls(:

what would you do if 11 confesses that he/ she likes you? {SEAN}
- IMPOSSIBLE. we don't match at all, and he likes pple with "C".

what language does 15 speak? {MY}
- the sweetest&romantic and most gentleman stuff anyone could imagine!((:

who is 9 going out with? {JIALE}
- MEMEME! nah jkjk. no idea leh, sad!

how old is 16 now? {JINGJIE}
- 14. damnit, he's older than me.):

when was the last time you talked to 13? {MICHELLE}
- on friday, when she said THANKYOU to me for lending her my uselss sci notebook

who's 2's favourite band/ singer? {MELVIN}
- AH I KNOW! F4&5566!

would you date 4? {SEETING}
- noway, she cheat my feelings one. like so many pple! AHAHA.

would you date 7? {CHERYL QUEK}
- DUH OF COURSE!=)

is 15 single? {MY}
- hahas. who knows.. :P

what's 10's last name? {CK}
- FOOFOOFOOOOOO!

would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? {SEAN}
FCK LAH! THIS WON'T HAPPEN!

what school does 3 go to? {SHUYI}
- an ex-SNURPS student, now DHS student

where does 6 live? {FELICIA KHOO}
- somewhere in eunos and near mryeo

what's your favourite thing about 5? {MAYPING}
- she cheers me up alot lorh!(: she's nice what!

have you seen 1 naked? {ZHENZHEN}
- aiya so exposed le, still got what else to see. LOL.

tagged victims:
i won't tag anyone else la wth(:

this is one of the days i hope to sit down and hide to sleep away and die..

daniel powter's hit song

2006-05-27T19:36:00.000+08:00

watch my life pass me by,
in the rearview mirror,
pictures frozen in time,
are becoming clearer,
i don't wanna waste another day,
stuck in the shadow of my mistakes.

fallin' faster,
barely breathing,
give me somethin to believe in,
tell me it's not all in my head.

take what's left of this man,
make me whole once again.

take what's left of me.

---

death, ever so icy cruel.
days near death, ever so beautiful.

activity was kind of good today, for the others i guess, as they were all enduring and pushing through and having loads of fun(:
hmm. the positive attitude of our squad yeps.

but for me, nahh, im not cut out for being in all these.
had to fall out a HELL LOADS OF TIME because i wasn't feeling well, and i hope xe&pt ma'ams would really keep the promise and not tell anyone else. if they see this, pleasseeee & thankkks! :|( please. )

thanks weiying ma'am, xiner ma'am and all those who showered sweet care and concern over me like shuyi, seeting, yousi, wenyi, yadayada and the list goes on.

i definitely am scared of death, i admit that. sighhh.

God Bless Me PLEASE. let me live through my secondary school, without going anywhere else..

[ and please don't come askin' me what's wrong if i didn't tell you anythin', thanks(: ]

i wanna cry, but i won't give a damn about it cuz i really don't wanna care and don't wanna be involved.

congratulations to all those who got promoted and HOORAYY to all! we all got the crime prevention badge, ROCKNESS!

_____

urgh, cut the bull. i'll go onto the main issues of my life now.
im falling but i will stand strong.. LALALA

hmm mum callin me to go out already, shall get back later to write.

_____

alright back from dinner at sushi teh paragon. hmm quite full and the mango mousse cake was superb! and Grandma was so Fantabulous!

(:put me in quite a good mood.

argh cried on the way there cuz reminded me of some stuff):

____

don't feel like talkin much. blahaha.

(by the way, yah i suck. i am a fucktard. i don't give a shit about what's happening. happy? i think i dominate the world and everything belongs to me and i am so fucking selfish i don't care about anyone else right? yah i guess so. FINE. go and do whatever you want with me. hate me or dislike me, spread gossips and defame me for all you want, because i don't freakin care. I SUCK. END OF STORY)

i adore you<3

2006-05-26T05:57:00.000+08:00

i thought about it, and due to the little conflict,

you might have to wait(:
cuz im staying on.

the attraction, the tension

2006-05-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

Oh boy, I can see your body moving
Half animal, half man
I don't, don't really know what I'm doing
But you seem to have a plan
My will and self restraint
Have come to fail now, fail now
See, I am doing what I can, but I can't so you know
That's a bit too hard to explain

Everyone, tune to Hips Don't Lie by Shakira. i'm getting hyped by this song(:

anw the past few days had been rather eventful, to a certain point i mean. went to church and God forbid me to saying, but the person who was delivering the sermon was superrr boring. urgh, i nearly paiseh myself by falling asleep, haha.

then art class was BLAH lah, didn't do much though.. but i'm gonna finish it by this weekend.(hopefully)

and came monday, where there was the speech competition. yupyup, thanks to everyone(:
but i seriously didn't feel i should have won, because the other speaker was really much better, and i bet many more people thought so too. however, as long as i know, you know, everyone knows deep down and recognize who is the best, the prize and title means nothing((:

then there was the i&e carnival, shouted and begged innocent customers to buy the stuff. woah, that was one time for my group to make money, our start up capital was ZILCH, meaning all the SALES REVENUE was all that we earned and we pocketed it. HAHA. we're smart(:

and today tuesday, i'm superrr bored and superrr tired. though i slept at quite an early time yesterday night, i was terribly feverish and needed to rest. i just couldn't take the exhaustion any longer.

forget about my sleep, which included quite a few dreams that woke me up. ):

garh, my dreams are still bugging me. forget it, anw it was the last lesson with mrkew and it was kinda funny having a q&a session with me, asking him about his HAIRtail, and not PIGtail.

then there was the trip overseas to thailand, im in the group KAREN. the first thing that came to my mind was: "WHAT THE.. i'll be cheering during the thailand trip, if we ever need to, and it's so freakin' similar to my name! KAREN/KARMEN KAREN/KARMEN ALL THE WAY" kaomeimei.."

but after thinkin for awhile, quite not bad lah. lol.

but kinda sad, all the usual gig i hang out with ain't going for the sc trip, but i'm not very sad lah, cuz there is amanda, who's always super cute and adorable(:

yah that kinda sums up my bad mood for all these days. just bear with me till holidays and you won't see me for many days. then, i would be able to go crazy all i want at home, where no one sees me.

just bear with me everyone, i'm very sorry. (i have no mood for anything now)

/
let the wind blow,
let the tears drop,
cuz i don't care what happens anymore,
i just need you to bring me through this.

-peace out

are we still in love?

2006-05-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

this is gonna be one short post.

as i see a boy chase after a girl, actually to put it plainly, "stalking" her in a way.(and people mentioned, dont come spam my tagboard with concerns of hate)

and here i am, frightened by something else.

damnit.

if you got nothing better to do, other than doing this, please go watch teevee or play with something else. i have no intention whatsoever to get acquainted with you. so please, stop doing this. you're making me go donkeys and you're making yourself go chicken! GO CLUCK SOMEWHERE ELSE!

there, done. if you can't be bothered, neither could i, because in the end, i'll get over it faster than you do.

sum it up in 2 words.
GET LOST.

it goes on

2006-05-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

days went on like usual.
days passed like usual.

so there's actually isn't much to note down on my online diary here.

but maybe. just once.

i got 2 kk awards in a row(: one from PAULA! one from ELEANOR & CO.!

ok that's probably quite spastic, but i won out of ALL PEOPLE! x)

got an MC in the morning when i went to see the doc on friday morning, but i came to school still cuz there was crimeprevention ppt presentation. ah, should have stayed at home. i failed maths lalala. i dont care.

and i felt quite happy during school on friday, but when it ended, and npcc started. my enthusiasm was zilch, my energy was zilch, level of food and fats available to burn in my bloody body was zilch too.

i didn't want to attend the whole thing at all lah. (i don't care a thing about how others loved the combinedpt, my likeness for anything related to my cca is zilch too)

that's probably why i hate myself too.

then today, felt damn sick in the morning, so called off guitar lesson, cuz there was also an SC meeting later in the afternoon.

then went to school, i was late, what the heck.

i wanted to doze off, i tried to be happy, but i still can't, what the heck.
[ amy was damn cute fiddling with her phone doing some STUFF hor ]

went for lunch with shuyi, jiale, amy, eugene, jianxiong and weicong, laughed, joked, quite happy, but needed to go back school, couldn't go home with them, what the heck.
[ jianxiong and weicong are scared of me now lol ]

went for the so called sc meeting, only i was present with shining, what the heck.
[ but i spent quite a great time with shining and her snrs(: i like them wahah. ]

and mummy came back from hongkong just now. got me some stuff.
and daddy called to say that he would bring me n93 over during my birthday cuz it's still not out yet.

AND TO EVERYONE,
THAT'S THE REASON WHY I HAVEN'T CHANGE MY PHONE EVEN THOUGH I SAID I WOULD CHANGE IT FOR SUCH A FREAKIN' LONG TIME, THE PHONE ISN'T OUT YET, SO HOW COULD I CHANGE IT LOL.

yeah that's about it, i feel so angry that i want to feed it on someone else.
but im nice, i keep it to myself.

and 6CH BBQ!(=

down

2006-05-18T22:32:00.000+08:00

sorry friends, im down again, for today and probably the rest of the week. (not really because of results but some other personal reason)

all i feel like today is to take down some lyrics..
sure hope everyone don't mind.

Sometimes we get second chances
And sometimes we never make it past the first
It really makes you wonder why somethings happen when they do
It really makes me wonder why it wasn't me instead of you

Could you look me in the eye
and tell me that you're happy now oooooh
would you tell it to my face or have i been erased
are you happy now?
are you happy now?

It just takes a little bit of this, a little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now were up to bat
A little bit of laughs, a little bit of pain
Im telling you my babe
Its all in the game of love.

Love is
Whatever you make it to be
Sunshine
Instead of this cold lonely sea
So pleased baby
Try and use me for what Im good for
It aint saying goodbye
Its knocking down the door of your candy store

And when you say
It doesn't matter well it does
And all it takes
Is a mistake to eat your words
Just one more time I think I'll drive on home tonight

And when you look its gone its too late to turn around
And it's another day facing yourself and the things that you've done

You roll me
Control me
Console me
Please hold me
You guide me
Divide me, into me

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please hold me
In this game of love
Im out here on my own

let's all guess whose lyrics are these?

BIRDSBIRDS

2006-05-16T18:51:00.000+08:00

(:HOTDOGS are OUT!
(:BIRDS are IN!

thanks to mrbrown, i got over my hotdog fantasies, and now i'm crazy over birds. listen to his latest podcast(15/5/2006) and you'll understand why.

visa card advertisments(:

anw mummy is in hongkong now, hope she's alright though cuz the weather ain't looking very good over there, there's already a signal for typhoon, but at least she got over to hongkong safely.

so sent mummy off at the airport this morning, and after we parted, i went to terminal two burger king to munch on some food and also do some work. i proudly say i managed to finish my 2maths assignments and grab some knowledge of the homework we need to work on online. then just when i was finishing my coffee and sms-ing my mummy, yousi called and asked if i wanted to catch poseidon with them.

seeing that i was losing interest at airport and it was getting noisy since it was DAYtime, so i went to join them. and the movie ain't that bad, but it wasn't that touchin that would make me fall on my knees and go boohoohoo.

hahas watched the movie with seeting, yutse and kelly. met th, cally, alisa and some other girls there, it was cheryl/sheryl's birthday. (but i didn't go over to wish her happybirthday cuz i didn't know her well)

then after the show, just went home lorh):

so there's plenty for me to finish up. but first, maii teeeveee showww! (sounds farmiliar? hah)

(and eww. you disgustin' lil thing, better change la, if not alot of pple gonna hate you in the near future)

/
anonymous: (1)yourwelcome dear one. you gotta click on the picture to see it BIG.
amy: hellooo(: i'll link you up now
jolyn: i'll consider you as a very nice and lucky candidate
b3: sorry lah! my fault. i go edit now alrights.
b3&kaiying: bertram has always been like that, aint i right? biggglybeef!
anonymous: (2)ohyeah, im gonna smack you fckin hard THERE and stick one tree trunk down your asshole if you ever do it with beertttyyyyy!
hotpadi: ohdear. dont copycat lah, must let that thing have its uniqueness, so in time to come, we'll see what she gets herself into.

till then, everyone toodlebirddyboo!(=

the binge of talking

2006-05-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

forget the sad, live the present
[though im quite down because of the results of the test paper, im feeling kinda neutral cuz i kinda decided to study already? gah, i hope i'll get better grades after this metamorphosis. goddamnitifailedmymathscommontestiwannacrybutwhocarescuzialreadypredictedittohappenarghshikes]

i was talking with bertram just now, and i got such a great time. but it was a pity that i'm having a flu now, so i couldn't really enjoy the time, as i was sniffing away and blowing my nose.

here's an exerpt of our conversation.. enjoy!

1) berty revealing my true deep dark secrets

2) berty revealing his true deep dark secrets

3) bertram and i having a wild time(:

ohyeah. i feel read good now.
and fyi, (just like how hannah puts it, it's FOR YOUR INFORMATION for all the goondu out there)
i'm sick with flu, thank goodness there isn't any fever involved this time round(:

let's hope i get well, so i can go to my airport revision time tmr :D

/
b3- bertram i answered to you in our nice convo(((:
anonymous- (first reply) of course! :)
hotpadi- hahah yalorh.
anonymous- (second reply) thanks for the active participation! :)
yilin&esther- wahah! girls rule, boys drool!
anonymous- (third reply) thank you so much for dropping by, however, you have not won a prize in the daily lucky draw for taggers of cnk-06(: Nevermind, you'll still have a chance, continue to drop by and you might stand a chance to win the Grand Prize of a 1MILLION INCH' LCD TV with 2ZILLION PIXELS!

and it applies to all people, if you do believe i could bring down and give you the omni-theatre as a gift :D

toodles!

desperation

2006-05-14T19:49:00.000+08:00

ART CLASS WAS FUN TODAY((:

just how much MALES would go to the extent of acting smart..

we were suppose to paste our cut-outs of textures on drawing block, and there were suppose to be 30 of them.

then one guy, who's kinda notorious, only pasted 3 rows of his cut-outs. LIKE THAT:

and he showed it to the teacher, asking, "Can anot? i got 30 cut-outs liao."
The teacher looked at the paper with disgust, but still, being a nice jolly patient teacher, he counted the number of cut-outs.

and he said, "EH. your maths fail lah! where got 30? only 21 what!"

shiqian and i went o_0|||

and both of us told them there were only 18 cut-outs on the drawing block lah, and i added, "Teacher! Your maths also fail lah!"

so the teacher went paiseh, so he said to the guy, "Go paste 2 more rows."

then another boy came along and said.. "Wah teacher! why you so nice to him, let him paste 2 more rows only. walao! pian1xin1!"

and i went 0_0|||

and i got so agitated, i said, "PIANG EH. your maths also fail lah. 2 more rows, just nice 30 lah!"

for those who don't understand, the results would be this..

SO AREN'T I CORRECT? I MADE 3 MALES PAISEH AT ONCE BECAUSE THEY WERE SO DESPERATE TO PROVE THAT THEY WERE CORRECT! x)

or was it 2 males, ahah, who cares?!

at the end of the day, lesson learnt is:
GIRLS RULE, BOYS DROOL~

=)

2006-05-13T20:10:00.000+08:00

i haven't complete my work yet, but at least i'm back on track. i'm trying to figure out maths and do all the equations to finding the surface areas and volumes.(though i still can't do it)

sort of happy today, probably because i went for my first guitar lesson. though i ain't ready to jam with all you professionals out there, i'm just going slow and learning the basics and techniques. at least i can play one small piece already, but it's a tune which i have no idea what the title is.

i feel like jammin' already! :D

church&art tmr((:
one step closer to God.

level camp

2006-05-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

Not going home is already like death.
- E. Catherine Tobler, Vanishing Act

since there is great response that i should blog about level camp. here's my feedback and thoughts and all that you wanna know how i feel for level camp.

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on a fine bright sunny monday morning, i went to school, not having a positive attitude. instead, i felt the monday blues and i totally didn't feel like doing anything at all.

luckily, my brain went dingdangpeee! and i got kinda hyper and happy on the bus, and i think i irritated ziyu and derhui alot cuz ziyu was complaining loudly about me! ):badboy la!

anyway i think level camp totally rocked cuz there was Boss(Bobby) and Rockstar(John) as the LegendaryKingKong's instructors.

John was rather quiet throughout the whole camp, until probably the last day where he was quite open. cuz he kinda got irritated by Jintao(yes that big STAR of my group) and he was like "Jintao, quiet! if not i am gonna make you do *blahblah*, okay?!", and he also went on to tell us about his ghost encounters, which was way creepy but cool.

then there was Boss, whom i just love so much cuz of his humour. he is just so drop-dead gorgeous once you know how outgoing and funky he is. Boss really swept me off my feet when he tricked us with his insanely funny jokes. gosh, i hope i could meet him again and really get to converse with him((:

BOSS ROCKS!

dayONE-
we started off with tent pitching, and it was quite a disaster because i nearly dehydrated, and the world seemed to be spinning round me, or i think probably me spinning around in the world? alot of people just stood around giving us the mental support and power, and not helping out much. but i won't blame them though, cuz they weren't that sure of tying the strings. and i wasn't sure HAHA cuz the way was different from npcc's.
then we got on with the initiative games and all the "bonding" games, i can't say it was real fun, but with Boss around, the game seemed so bloodily cocky and exciting!
and we ate dinner and went on to plan for our campfire item, which turned out to be a time for us to sit down and slack, while a few people stood infront of KL and miserably asked us to raise up suggestions.
and then i felt so sick, i wanted to puke and just lie flat on the ground to sleep cuz my head was going round like mad.
so i went home, and got back the next day.

dayTWO-
i went to see the doc in the morning, and went back to camp.
i was selfishly gloating about in my heart about me sleeping at home, and not in tents, cuz i heard that it was pretty uncomfortable sleeping in tents. with all the girls' talking and all the screamings, and of course, the creepy crawlies that were around to prey on all the tasty and delicious girls.
i missed morning exercise, obstacle course, but got back in time for rockclimbing. i was the last to climb and it was kinda like awkward to lag everyone, so i decided to just kick off from the rockclimbing thing, and partially acting to have lost my footing.
then we went on to the river challenge, and i didn't get very wet like the last time we went, but while dipping inside the pool, Boss kinda "bullied" jintao a lil bit and it was quite funny. :D
in shortened sentences for the next few activities:
nr- not bad(:
saints challenge- did one of it, and the grp i was on won(: but it started to flash with lightning and so we didnt get to do KingoftheHill.
nightactivity- CANCELLED siah. what the hell. i really wanted to do it. heard that i was real cool.

so during the time we couldn't go anywhere else, we played murderer and all sorts of games, and it was quite fun(:
and also, we moved from tents to huts/dorms! and i was at hut5 whereby Boss told loads of people about the fake ghost story that took place at hut5! :0 phew!

dayTHREE-
the hike was so amazing, everyone was so enthu, everyone was so high.

pui. ya right.

i think i was too hyper for the hike cuz i got excited as i got my way around right. but that stupid frog farm was at the wrong side of the street on the stupid map! so it got us walking in the wrong direction! pfffttt!
but i enjoyed the hike, it was quite nice((((:

campfire was amazing, although the atmosphere ain't there, at least we weren't as dead like we were on the first day. everyone cheered like shiao. and there were quite abit of nice sights to catch, like how shuting and shiying danced, and how SHAUN and the rest of the guys danced. it was quite nice. items put up by each group were also entertaining and at least, the campfire was nice.

dayFOUR-
shiok. we didn't do much for area cleaning as the girls just sat at the side, while Rockstar and guys did almost everything for clearing up the campfire place(:

---

regarding any interesting stuff that happened..
well, i would be quite disturbed if i blog about it, lest my teachers see it and i get into trouble.
so to prevent that from happening, i would just put the event in a way that you guys probably understand it but don't at the same time..

He felt kinda itchy so he went to scratch the part, and after the scratch, he felt naturally good, and thus, he decided to lie down and continue to scratch more, which resulted in the itchy part to get so aroused that it shot up and faced the sky, away from the dark.

scary leh. thank goodness i didn't get to see it. hahah.

went back to school on the bus, and mayping benjamin nicholas and i were having a rather funny time talking about weird stuff.

a funny convo i think.

mayping: i don't know how jiaying looks like leh!
benjamin: he's that guy who don't wear his specs and act seh that one lor!
nicholas: yalorh!
me: why he take off his specs ah?
nicholas: to act seh and attract attention..
benjamin: .. yaya..from guys lorh!
me: huh?! from jintao ah?!
nicholas: *laughlaugh*
me: ehhh. don't your think that jiaying's eyebrow looks like nicholas'?
benjamin: eh yahor.
me: then jiaying's eyes looks like jintao's bigbig eyes?
mayping: very alike leh!
me: WAPIANG. jiaying got mummy and daddy siah! nicholas and jintao!

the rest of the bus trip was typically funny. whereby we changed hai3dai4 to moonsunsea cuz nicholas said that he didn't know how to play and he only knew about the moon and sun. so i changed the game a lil bit and BENJAMIN was sooo goood at moonsunsea while i was better at the other! LOL.

piang. had a great time on the bus trip home siah.

the level camp t-shirt design was not bad and i'm kinda lovin it. hahah.

i'm tired, and guitar tmr!

every princess has a knight!
/
toodle(:

he just dont love me no more

2006-05-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

Complaining is good for you as long as you're not complaining to the person you're complaining about.
-Lynn Johnston (1947 - ), For Better or For Worse, 11-06-03

i better do something about my studying attitude, i really slacked quite a bit(fine!ALOT!) today and only got hardworking at night, which was when i tried to start on my maths, but i just couldn't find my calculator!

so i got onto my feet, and using my hands too. trying to search for my calculator among the mess i made before level camp. all my books and files were cluttered, and i got quite fucked up trying to search for smth among the mess i made.

so i decided to clean up my place, and i realised..

1- I FOUND MY CALCULATOR! :D
2- i lost my thumbdrive. ):
3- i lost my colonialism notes. ):
4- i lost something which i dont know what is it. ):
5- smth tells me i lost smth. ):
6- i think i lost smth rather important!

urgh i just don't feel quite right now. BLAAAHHHH!

somebody wish me luck to find my thumbdrive!

:/ Changed

2006-05-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

Words, words, words. I'm so sick of words!
- Elliza Doolittle, My Fair Lady

just to tell some people all out there that comes to my blog, thinking that skins you see HERE is from blogskin.. er. just to inform you, this is a skin i made, not from blogskins or anywhere else yep(:

---

as i ate breakfast this morning and watched tv, i decided to go google for some interesting stuff. though this might come late, but i went to egoSurf to try out how many ego points i have. and wooh, my results was zilch. i wonder how retarded it is to trust a website to see how much ego i had. anyway, everyone, just try it out if you haven't, and tell me if you got 0 too. :D

i'm getting sick of school, whereby it's all about studying and working my ass off. It just seems i don't have a life anymore. I seem not to be able to enjoy myself in school, as i get grades that disappoint myself quite abit. And when i get home, i get so tired, i'll just slug to my bed, and begin to fall into a sleep, not caring much about schoolwork. This is definitely not the lifestyle i want of secondary school. i bet i could have studied hard, and only leaving entertainment to last.

i bet i could. but, i just can't.

just like how Mayping put it, " I think you're thinking too much, just relax lah." And i hope i could.

It's time for me to make a big U-turn back to how i was in primarysix and i was that dingdong geeky girl studying for her psle. I hope i could be like the karmen then, so that i could coddle myself(physically&mentally) by getting sastifying grades.

Time for a change, time for a change.

there, after this post, i shall go do all my homework and finish pasting up the cut-outs for art, do the skit for geog project and start on the crime prevention ppt slides.

((: i believe because of you.

toodles!

back! :D

2006-05-12T00:42:00.000+08:00

gosh. i haven't updated for about.. about four long days!

ANYWAYYYYYYYYY..

I'M BACK FROM CAMP!

i survived the long and hard level camp, which totally bore me out and which just brought me away from home. ehey, i won't blog about level camp that much cuz i just didn't really like it.. but i'll like to say some stuff to certain people yup. not gonna be real personal, and might go all out to different people.

Mayping
thanks for being there through out the camp for me, being in the same group and bunk and all. lolol thanks for hearing me crap and stayin by my side yup. and also the support, and trying to cheer me up. really really really appreciate it and DARLING.. i love you loads!

Seeting
thanks again for being in the same group as me for level camp. real sorry that i said quite a bunch of harsh words to you when i wasn't feeling quite right, in other words, when i was going dingdong.. thanks for understanding me and i hope we're still on good terms yup. anw happy that you cheerup with her and it's quite heartwarming to see you happy all over again after the sobbings(:

Sinhui
wooh. thanks for being our group's morale pillar where you'll just push through everything and always jiayou-ing us. and also allowed the group to feel quite happy. you sweet lil girl.. can't imagine the group without you. and so there, thanks again for being around to show your cute face and nice voice reminding everyone to do what they need to do.

Derhui
woww. spontaneous man. thanks for being there again as the group leader and helping the group throughout everything. thanks for jumping into the milo pool and swimming across to tie the rope. thanks for controlling jintao at certain point of time and doing work that guys need to do, but just some guys couldn't care less about doing. overall. thanks for being a leader there!
___

and the rest of the groupmates, thanks loads yup. especially to pamela, rest well at home and cheerup alright, i don't think there will be much problems. take care!<3 urgh it's nearing 1am already! and im getting real tired even though i slept through afternoon till about 10.30pm at night. hope everyone's getting a good rest!(:

AND I'M SO SAD, I ONLY GOT ONE TAG AFTER MY CAMP! BOO.

i miss him.
and i love God((:
/
i wonder how me met,
but,
till the day we leave our pair, i'll be watching you from over there..
never leaving till i decide to kiss off you.

toodle-boo!

BEFORE):

2006-05-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

seriously, i am not looking foward to LEVEL CAMP that's gonna start tmr..

): sure i could be positive that im not going to have lessons for 4 days, but im gonna be so darn negative about the whole thing cuz i'll be slugging away in a campsite i loathe so much..

gosh. at least my grouping is kindaa fun! :D

1) MAYPING!(: [u made me go to wedding palace with you for nothing leh!so u better be nice to me!]
2) SINHUI!(: [my sexayeee group leader!]
3) SEETING!(: [my skinnnyyy squadmate!]
4) DEHUI!(: [my nice squadmate & can calm me down at night!]
5) PAMELA!(: [chiobu! pleasant for the eyes!]
6) LIANGWEI!(: [naggy but nice boy siah! reminded me of so many stuff during sctrip!]
7) JINTAO! :D [IM GONNA ENJOY MYSELF!]

and all the rest i do not know well, im gonna let myself free and have one heaven of time having fun with all of you! :D

GROUP12L ALL THE WAY! :DD

so im gonna be back on thursday, most probably not cuz i doubt i would be hardworking enough to come online straightaway unless God Blesses Me with the energy to do so, and the spiritual mind to do the blogging.

and my guitar lesson gonna start this SATURDAY! yipppeeee!

so till then, REMEMBER ME, TAG, SEND YOUR LOVE, AND BYEBYEEE! CYA! (:

/
melvin: i did!
michelle: yes YIHERN IS WAY SO CUTE!
/th: yep i agree too! but it's alright though, at least it's nice!
amanda: noproblemo! love ya! aiya. flower wither, still got me mah!
- : NOLA! I DONT!
zhenzhen: LONG'ER is so way different from CHANG'ER!
jesica: noproblem! :D
puss: oohoho. WELCOME x)
annoymous: who r u sweet fella? anw, no comments mean no bad comments!(:

he loves me not

2006-05-07T00:43:00.000+08:00

EDS NIGHT BROUGHT THE HOUSE DOWN!

alright im saying this for all my darlings out there from eds. hahas. hope you all loved the roses. anw, yihern was so cuteeee! his hair was waxed!

OHEMGEE!

yihern is really really really cute! if only he was more mature.. sighsigh.

had quite a nice time at eds night. zhenzhen wore a skirt! seh leh, long'er should have been there to view the fantastic sight of her lean legs=P

i must say, im quite impressed with the people i know. the ones who could dance, and the ones who acted. totally seh la. hahas.

i repeat.

YIHERN IS CUTE LA! imagine him dancing! :D

and i appeal to all to TAG regardless whether you find this idiotic blog boring or not! PLEEEEASSSEEE!

TAG TAG TAG!

i survived

2006-05-06T09:57:00.000+08:00

this week finally passed.
with the chinese, maths and history test, plus the 2.4km run.
think i'll need to buck up on my studies soon, or i'll get kick out of dunman high for sure.

npday- wore uniform for the whole day, and i need to change my skirt and my beret. the skirt too's wide and too short, and the beret is too small, eee yuck.

2.4km- darnit. could have ran faster. shoulder ached again, and luckily, there's still the rubbing stuff at home for me to rubaarubrub! and yah, to everyone, i was 2nd last.

afterschool- sat around with kristy, talked with her over quite alot of stuff. man.. i felt much better after talking with kristy, I LOVE KRISTY TO BITS!

mrchan left today, and it was his last lesson.
got a yellow ball with his message. thanks(:

cried in my full-u today, because he left.
cant believe i cried in full-u even though it wasnt pop.

mrchan was really a nice teacher, though i daresay he was much patient than our former maths teacher. mrchan was nice, listening to all our class crap and rumours. he even crapped along with us, truly interacted with us alot. he strived to improve and he didnt hesitate to listen to our harsh comments when we didn't like him at first. it took quite alot of time for us to get to know him, and it only gave us so little time to truly enjoy lessons with him.

i'll take a great deal of time to adapt to maths without mrchan.

mrchan, you're the maths dude of all lifetime.

/
i was losing myself to somebody else,
but i wont pretend this is the end of you and me.
cuz the girl you once loved,
was tearing us apart.

i can't be bothered what you're thinking anymore,
unless you do.

i doubt you even come here after you got what you wanted, typical.
/

oh zhenzhen, you can be sure im normal(:

something funny happened today though.

i was lying on my bed, then i was thinking was it 2am or 7am,
so i grabbed randomly all over my bed, searching for my handphone.

in the end, i grabbed it, it started playing TUODIAO!
i think i must be doing some yoga while i was sleeping, making my phone go to my music player and to PLAY TUODIAO!

and it was 2.30am.

gee, i woke my whole block up i think.

spastic x)

2006-05-04T19:24:00.000+08:00

i wanna be with you,
if you wanna be with me(:

oooh damn spastic leh. okay maybe i should jot down smth more close to reality.

got back to school, took my maths test, surprised i could do some questions, relieved that i couldn't do quite alot. hahas, make sense?

nvm, also got a pretty spastic interaction period, standing on stage, doing the mass dance in front of everybody.. damnit, was in a very bad mood at that time, cuz i was sweating like siao and feeling giddy ):
sorry amanda for being so moody!

everyone agreed that dawn could dance VERY WELL! she's the queen man. (& i wanna be king.)

then i went back to class, only to realised it was music next, meanwhile yihern passed me a slip of paper containing the finalists for the speech thing la. DIAO~

im a finalist?

just by bullshitting at the impromptu speech and even not finishing my prompt speech, i actually got in? wahpiang. smth is wrong with the world.

nvm, then i shall work hard not to MALU myself in front of the sec2cohort, like today.

chinese and history test tmr.
STUDY!

/
npday tmr.
SIAN~
debating with self whether to go eat my recess.. ahahs.

sick

2006-05-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

okay.. i didn't go to school today. had a fever yesterday night and sweated like mad. so decided to stay home today to rest.
urgh. went to see the doctor in the morning and ate some breakfast, then came home, drink water eat medicine, and tried to do some history revision cuz i didn't manage any yesterday night, but felt so sick and went to sleep.

slept all the way till 2pm i think. and i think i will be sleeping soon again, wahpiang. there's this splitting headache im having siah.

SICK SICK SICK

sickening whore, DANG it. i have no idea how i'm going to pass this maths test and history and chinese in this condition.

nvm, hopefully i'll fail everything and i can retake the year. blah.

blah =X

2006-05-02T20:27:00.000+08:00

got that speech thing today, and i was horrible!
didn't manage to even finish my prepared speech, damnit!

passionate speech, argh.

but the PLUS point was, I MADE SEVERAL PEOPLE LAUGH!

and i wanna thank hannah, clara and mschong for helping me throughout the writing of the script and mayping for comforting me, or rather relaxing me before the whole dumb thing.

RYAN, you looked so sexy on stage!(: [ oops.hope he doesnt see this ]
and the paper that shuyi, seeting and jingjie passed me, it's so CUTE with CUTE shuyi's CUTE handwriting that i'm gonna go laminate that CUTE lil piece of CUTE paper. SHO CUTEEEE~

---

lessons were b o r in gg, as usual.

and by the look of my schedule, there's quite a lot of stuff to complete, and i think i forgot to do some stuff, but i just can't seem to rmber them.

im getting really old..

anyway the highlights of this week is one test following another for 3 consecutive days, ohno. 4!

tmr- history
thur- maths
fri- chinese & 2.4km

argh. im tired!

nvm. it's time to ~~mug~~study! :D

die

2006-05-01T18:28:00.000+08:00

OHEMGEE.

im so dead. the file in my thumbdrive is lost. SHIT.

SPT LOVES ME

2006-04-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

im addicted to Everything I'm Not by The Veronicas now, though the lyrics ain't gonna affect me one bit, cuz i'm a nice girl who's not gonna be involved with such complications.

but just one sentence is nice;

It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up

i'm kinda tired and annoyed right now.. shall update y'all a little bit later.

CS Concert was SUPERB! Really entertaining and great performance by ningli and xinyun!
( ; i shall go peng3chang3 every year!

xinyun was really nice to look at though. x)

anw what's important is what happened next.

Singapore Public Transport truly loves me, they made me wait at the bus-stop for a long 15 minutes for a bus called 100, because there wasn't a EMPTY taxi that wasn't changing shifts, there wasin't a EMPTY taxi that wasn't on call, there wasn't an EMPTY taxi for me to hire at all! Fine, i endure the humiliation of staying at that frigging bus-stop located at Fullerton Square for such a long period of time.. and so i went on to call for a cab, hoping that by giving some extra money, i shall be guranteed an early trip home..

BUT NO!

I called for Comfort. I followed instructions and hold on for quite a long time, every now and then, hearing the music stops, and then a friggin voice just ring to inform us;

in my context,

" Sorry, just keep holding on till some of us are happy enough to pick up your call. JUST HOLD ON. it makes me laugh to see you cling onto the phone, so desperately to go home. we shall just torture you, and let you waste your phone bill.. hahaha.."

i was pissed off.

nevermind, as long as i could get a cab, i'll endure..
my call was picked up.

and i informed the "agent" on my location, and after waiting a great deal of 5 minutes with the stupid music being played..

i was told,

" Sorry madam, there isn't any cabs available for you. Please try calling again later."

WHAT THE HECK?!

HELLO?! i thought it was your job to get me a cab regardless whether there is any available cab around to ferry me home, that would only last a few kilometres and minutes? IS IT SO DIFFICULT?

but nvermind, i said thanks and bye.

___

next, i called SMRT.

OHEMGEE.

i waited for 10minutes and there wasn't any REPLY AT ALL.
i simply hung up.

thank goodness my mother decided to fetch me from the busstop, thus i came up with a few ways to deal with such situations, but it would have different consequences.

RANK 5
Requirements: courage and ability to run.

To-Do: Flag down a cab if possible, once it reaches your house, stop it somewhere where you can run to hide and also get home easily. Then alight without giving the driver any money.

RANK 4
Requirements: giving and an old handphone.

To-Do: Tell the taxi driver uncle you have no money, then tell him you would give him your hp in exchange for the ride. Pass him the old handphone, and LEAVE.

RANK 3
Requirements: guts

To-Do: Go to some high class hotel, and act all china or american or english, and request for a cab from the doorboys. You should be able to get a cab quick, if the doorboys acknoledge you as an important visitor.

RANK 2
Requirements: a Smart brain, handphone and abitlity to feign ignorance.

To-Do: Call 999 and report yourself as you lost your way, the police should come and pick you up. A SAFE TRIP HOME CONFIRMED.

RANK 1
Requirements: a Smart brain, handphone and abitlity to feign ignorance.

To-Do: Call your MP, and ask him/her to provide a serivce for you since you'r e part of his constituency. Complain to him and talk about how PAP sucks, and how you would write to the forum of the newspaper to declare that PAP would not care much about a youngster who have no ability to vote.

ooh yeah. what do you all think about it? :/ i think it'll work.

i'm off to sleep, dead tired. BYE.

i eat what i said

2006-04-30T18:16:00.000+08:00

alright. i take back what i said about my ~~darn~~ cca the previous(x2) post. thought i still think it suck to the core.

lol mayping should know why i eat it back cuz i care so much about the stupid points, AHAHA.

anyway im gonna go off to meet the rest for cs concert later, and zhenzhen told me she couldn't fit into my shoes! lol! sorry zhenzhen! "_

mayping just sms-ed to say that gina is late for their dinner date with esther and jiayi, so i would meet them at 7.10pm, nvm, i shall go shop around. hahas.

SHUYI, I FEEL SO HAPPY THAT YOU FELT BETTER!

i feel better

2006-04-30T09:19:00.000+08:00

alright, i think i feel much better now after rushing home to relax myself.
gosh, my chest hurts.. argh im weak. but forget it.

firstly, i gotta say i love hannah to bits cuz she's helping me with so much stuff! kisses for you<3

and i gotta say i was cheered up by that insane video of the iraq. click here to watch it. it's really funny(:

and lastly, i got to do this cuz zhenzhen made me do it. BLEH.

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. The tagged victim have to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there's no need to do this AGAIN.
5. The most impt rule: HAVE FUN DOING IT.

The 8 points:
1. Must be a friend whom i know well and get along quite well
2. Able to understand me and share my sorrows, and thus cheer me up too!
3. Romantic and sweet
4. Must be someone who is mature enough to not fool around
5. Must be someone who is loud and comical, but know his own limits
6. He MUST communicate with me at least once everyday LOL
7. He must be a good guy who loves his family and everyone around him
8. He must be someone who loves me truly,deeply,madly! (:

Gender:
Male

The 8 victims:
1. seeting
2. amandaleong
3. kaiying
4. cheryl
5. yousi (i know you won't do it)
6. eugene (i dont think you'll do it)
7. shuyi (:D i dont think you'll even bother!)
8. MELVIN

- alright the 8victims i asked to do this is kinda weird. shall see whether they do it. LOL.

hateEVERYTHING

2006-04-29T19:28:00.000+08:00

FUCKIT.

it isn't abnormal for my cca to make me real unhappy, everytime i make myself just go. man, i wish i got the guts like jingjie to pon activities.. bet i would in the near future.

okay i made up my mind, i'll go for next week activity since i'll be seen around in school. then pon the next one after that. i have no whatsoever deep feeling for my cca anymore. no commitment, no dedication, no more bull for me.

i rather end up like june, with no cca, than to suffer like some idiot.

i shall just note down one more activity. anyway activity today was bleh for me.
i sucked at everything. especially drill, damnit. i just didn't get anything right..

i feel so retarded to come to school today when i could have slept at home and dont give a heck to anything.

anw back to activity.. yuck.yuck.yuck.

onemorething!
sorry to everyone in my squad, because of me, you all didn't get your water breaks, and shiying, you were a superb timer! don't cry and brood over it anymore yarh.(:
and congratulations to everyone who got promoted! especially the girls LOL

and that's the end of the whole note, i hate how i spent my saturday today.

and on another note.

i saw this deaf guy actually wearing a earpiece that connects to an ipod nano.. if i didn't knew he was deaf, i would have thought that he was a happy normal person that didn't have any deficiency. sometimes, i just don't understand God's plan for us, though i know i shouldn't doubt him.

why was i created to be so stupid?

history test!

2006-04-29T19:23:00.000+08:00

message from mrslee about history test!

For four-fifths of our history, our planet was populated by pond scum - J.W. Schopf says:

karmen, pls remind the class that there is a test on wednesday this coming week. Study your notes and readings on colonialism and the founding of modern singapore, the ones you received for your newspaper article assignment. this wednesday functions as day 8

&&jatekaJUICE-* {simpletune; of the hate says:
ok. thankyou.

For four-fifths of our history, our planet was populated by pond scum - J.W. Schopf says:

i will be away till after the level camp, so pls cooperate with the relief ok?

&&jatekaJUICE-* {simpletune; of the hate says:
ok
&&jatekaJUICE-* {simpletune; of the hate says:
we shall all try

---

let's do it! (and i posted this just so that anyone who comes to my blog but not the class blog can see this.)

attention!

2006-04-28T14:49:00.000+08:00

today, just as we settled down to spend our time being happy for interaction period..

Mr Sng Chern Wei, Principal of my School for the matter, announced through the sound system;
"School, we're going to have our fire drill now.. Please get ready.."

and...

RINGRINGRING!!!

that was seriously unlike how a fire drill should be like, the announcement defeated the purpose of it! hahaha..

anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHLONG! (:
though i hate you and you hate me and no one is happy, just a happybirthday! hope you get kai by the guys now.. HAHA.

lessons were usual and the elections are coming.. mryao, i will support you! just get the freakin urinator away from our estate!

gah, this post is sooo random.
so i'm gonna sign off.

_*his love is so sweet, and i hope for more, my selfish little stupid wish*_

karmenwong outlook.exp

2006-04-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

a whole new skin, a whole new me!

alright, i could swear i definitely said that more than a gazillion times but FORGIVE me, my dear friends, it takes very long for a metamorphosis to complete.

anyway just as i'm sitting here yadayada-ing about me, many people out there are probably sleeping and really having such fun dreams in their dreamland, i am gleefully sitting here feeling happy that i finished a blogskin.

i think making blogskins make me feel much more positive(:

and so, i shall go and complete one of the long overdued blogskin to my deaarrr yousi over the weekend and thus pass it to her on monday!

we also got back our LA test today and i'm feeling dejected. had misreadings and i'm furious with myself. and there's indices re-re-re-test tmr, and that probably would make no difference to my grades. i suck terribly, where's all my good grades?

just one more thing,

SHUYI, GET BETTER! GET WELL!
nothing is the same without you! restrestrest and get better ok!

{o btw, this skin is more viewable-friendly in internet explorer, and not mozilla firefox.

smoker

2006-04-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

i aspire to smoke next time, i mean, in my dreamland.

i think it's cool, i mean, the way you just hold the cigarette and puff.

i know it hurts, i mean, the bottomline is that it's cee ooo ooo eiaooo.. COOL!

gee, i think im falling in love with my displaypicture, that's why!

---

anyway school was much interesting today. especially, with the addition of the mundane health checkup that supplied us with a getaway from the "not-so-great-but-just-smth-i-want-to-use-to-sound-cliche-when-describing-the-next-word" walls of the classrooms that enslaves us to the boring textbooks that always seem to tempt us to go away to meet GUAN1GONG1.

ehey! i listen in class ok, i know he's some sort of God of Dream for the Chinese.

and the history debate was quite amusing, with a several judges that can't help but lean to the sides they have been loyally supporting. oh mrtan, don't come consoling me about how i am so confident in delivering my speech cuz i don't take those sort of crap. I SEE THROUGH YOU~

anyway, i finally did productive work at home today, probably researching for the speechthing and doing my maths ws. i truly wanted to do alot more, but i think i wanna doze off soon. (:

LET'S JUST SAY..

i had a boring day at school, just like normal.

re-quited

2006-04-25T21:37:00.000+08:00

i can't deny that i'm so bursting with energy and just can't wait to go around and spread the message of happiness and love!

i'm just so ENERGETIC, yah right lah.

im super deadbeat la, thought there's no strong reasons to support me to say that just because im sick like a cow means i should be tired like a bull.

anyway napfa was crap, complete crap. i only managed 1a, 2b and 2c. and crappy mrsiva and insane mrtan disturbed me, resulting in 1c and 1b. knncbb! mrsforty what shit and what pullup machine crap. disturb me for what lah! kaobei siah! damned fucked up! made me lose 1a and 1b. but im super happy about situps siah, lol. yay, personal best so far! (i only rmbered other time i 34, then 36, then 38, and finally!) argh, who cares, im not looking forward to 2.4 because this 5items screwed up, esp 2 items la, cb.

anw on a happier note, we made quite a progress for i&e, just in one single day! GREAT JOB TO YILIN, ZHENZHEN, ANGELL AND YIHERN! :DDD im happy, so i as president, shall give you all kisses, from the yandao hunk ME, MUACKKKK!

and there was the discussion about shi3dreams and the youknow, the rest of the stuff about BOYSBOYSBOYS! it was so super interesting, and amazing just how the human mind works. I think that sex education is really impressive when your classmates give it to you, and also it's so educational that i think everyone ought to go through this sharing course too, cuz you gain so much that your hands just tickle to experiment it on someone else! of course it's a deed, how else to make someone feel pleasure, right yihern?

i had a great time in the auditorium, thanks ck&cq for helping me! AHAHA!

OHYEAH.
during i&e, smth terrible happened. buttons got stuck to my fingers due to super glue and it was so terribly painful if i tried to just PIAK them off my fingers, so in the end, i spent quite a long while in the toilet, trying to remove them, which i suceeded in removing one. while the other, thanks to the SUPER MR JEREMY LIM (im only gonna do this for once), he helped me removed one button! GEE THANKS MAN! :)

ohyeah! -- YOU ROCK! i love you to the core siah! ok, i know not that sort of L-O-V-E, but that LOVE. thanks so much man for doing that for me, appreciated it alot! dude, you're good. pass it to me this week!

one more sentimental paragraph dedicated to myself and everyone yup:

sit down for a moment, think and wonder when was the last time you sincerely complimented someone? think and ponder whether have you hurt someone by hurting one's dignity by mocking another when he/she was innocent? just when have you not hurt someone with your words? just when have you not hurt someone with your actions? just when have you not hurt someone with your mindset?

sometimes, it doesn't kill to just shut your gap for a moment and allow others to have peace, quiet and enjoyment. don't spoil their day just by spitting rubbish at their faces because no one likes it.

it would help alot if you be nice to others, or you'll never receive that treatment, at all.

i just love the reality, so much.

sick;cow

2006-04-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

they're starting to call me COW again!

hmm, sounds weird, but i love it.

anyway im sick again. yes, again. :(

boohoo? my napfa 5items are tmr and i want to bawl about it. i suck.

AND CONGRATS TO TKSSBAND! they got goh! damn cool! :D

malu!

2006-04-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

phew, speech day is over!

blah i read so many things wrongly! blah! made so many mistakes! blahhhh! damn malu la! :(

but managed to complete it, phew. hopefully, i won't be needing to make such mistakes at all next time. BLAH.

ok, gonna sleep now. goodnight! (:

yawn

2006-04-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

this post is going to be rather a religious and personal one, not really concerning anyone in particular besides the mighty One up there.

so the dreaded week5 ended, and here we are, now looking forward to week6, where more assignments are due. high praise is on this saturday but im not really going all joyful that i might attend it, as the possibility of me not is, equals to 98%. simply cuz saturday is gonna be a busy day for me, a time for me to complete all the tasks i should have done long ago, and also mark an end to the messy cupboards i own in my house.

as all christians should know, sunday is sabbath. A time to rest and praise the Lord. THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I AM GONNA DO.

last week, when i realised that my sore throat worsen, i really felt helpless and forlorn, i just didn't know what to do when my voice simply cracked. i decided to do a devotion though it seemed rather selfish for me to only run to God when i face a problem that i just fear so much. it really helped to calm my nerves down, and it really made me believe that i will get better when it was time for me to face up to the many incidents which would require me to get talking. i think i did devotion on friday, the evening after the unit bbq.

but up till monday, i got quite impatient as my voice just didn't come back, i bet everyone could tell how flustered i was from my blog posts and my mood in class. However, i still believed and pressed on, i prayed to him every single moment, just to let my voice return for that little while during the prelim round, as i didn't want to disappoint the other 2 classmates that took part, indeed, my throat felt much better. but right after that, i thought it was rather weird, my throat just ached, it just ached like how i wished it never would. and i went to see the doctor again. i prayed really really hard that i would just get better in time for speechday tmr.

i did get better.

Praise the Lord.

and today when i decided to drop off at the bus-stop nearer to the food center, as i was craving for french fries then. I think God was really looking after me, at the time when i strolled to the western food stalls.

i went to the first one: Closed.
i went on to the second one: Closed.
i went on to the third&last one: Closed.

it seems pretty ironic, or such a coincidence, that somehow there was something that stop me from giving in to my temptations.

if it was You up there, thanks alot man.

so im gonna go practise the script now, and hopefully i'll be able to "perform" up to standard and also not disappoint the teachers and not embarrass myself in front of all the important guests.

really do hope i'll not flop.

anw to my sqdmates: have fun standing in the sun! hahas, you're all lucky man, got a chance to tan, while i gotta freeze inside the auditorium! jiayous, and drink loads of water! ((:

lousy

2006-04-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

karmen's home and she's intending to study all night, but she is just so DAMN TIRED!

guess she'll just have to exhaust herself once more..

i read smth quite disturbing on the net yesterday night, but felt that it was unjust to blog about it there and then, so i decided to do some thinking of it, and i shall phrase my thoughts now.

" whatever you do, whatever you feel, whatever you want, whatever you don't want, don't get me into a mess that i don't know what im in, because, coming and leaving, isn't the whole plan at all. i can be a listening ear, but i wont be someone who will go all out, risking life and death over a minute selfish thing. "

i think i sound very mean, but that's my honest opinion.

(: SO IM OFF TO STUDYING!

baa

2006-04-18T19:05:00.000+08:00

lessons were boring, nothing is new.

anyway didn't get into the finals for the chinesething, im actually glad la, if not i'll really malu in front of the whole level if i croaked.. really sorry to kristy and esther if you hoped to get in cuz i think it was mostly my fault la. really paisehs. but good luck to all the finalists(:

and my throat is aching again, so went to see chinesedoc. and shuyi went with me, LOL.
she's DAMN cute siah :D

anyway i think im gonna sleep again, im feeling super nauseous right now. think i'll puke and sleep. ):

im still depressed with the fact that i cant connect with my squad =(

desperado for voice

2006-04-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

i need my voice la!

~!@#$%^&*()_+{}[]|\?><:"

lessons were boring, DUH. and then leelaoshi met esther me and kristy for the yanjiang thing during assembly period cuz mryeo wasn't around.

shit lah. damnit.

i was barely croaking when we were rehearsing la, i didn't have any mood at all to memorise the script la. nvm, i shall try my best tonight and tmr morning. shall sleep early for the prelims tmr(:

and another frigging unhappy incident.

speechday rehearsal.
stupididiotbitch i must be.

my voice croaked like siao, it was totally NOT my normal voice. c'mon la, i look enough like a guy, at least gimme a voice to let little girls know that im approachable right?

nvm that's not the main thing, malu-ed quite a bit cuz there were MANY names that i just can't get right and i just couldn't articulate the words properly due to the throat.

SO.. teachers restricted me to eating spicy food. and they want me to abstain from talking. and im gonna do it whether it's for speech day or not, it's all about ME ME ME!

okay, time to go practise the scriptS.

and im kinda sad la, the squad seemed to be having fun today and couldn't join them for anything, not even to practise the drill, cbcb. and it's 2 times already, one cuz im already sick, this time cuz im occupied.

knn la, i miss my squad. ):

HAPPY EASTER =)

2006-04-16T20:39:00.000+08:00

went for service this morning, a little disappointed cuz they didn't hold any special service. but one highlight was after the service, i bumped into Joshua Ang. yep, that Joshua Ang. hmm, i think he goes to the 10.30am service, just for kelly's information.

something hilarious happened when i went to makan at a nasi padang restaurant near church. after finishing and we were purchasing some kueh-kueh outside, there was this dessert called "ohh-nee" (read it as OR-H NI), it's quite a delicious yam dessert but that indian-muslim(i think) man outside, said every so loudly: "ORH-NEH very nice! try some ORH-NEH !"

stress that i am emphasizing he said NEH as in AH-PU-NEH-NEH! it was damn funny la :P

and later mum drived me to art class. again, smth hilarious happened.
i went to the GIRLS' toilet, and then one small girl gave me one freaked out look la, went smth like this -> =O

hahas won't blame the girl though.. she's so young, i'm just exposing her to take things easily when she encounter similar events.

went to shop for a bottom after class with mum and she told me her max amt she would spend for my bottom would be only $30, guess what, she dragged me into Esprit when i declined the clothes at giordano and bossini. and there, with her coupons plus membership card's deductions, she spent a total of $49.90 on my army green khakis. i practically LMAO when she started complaining and chiding herself of bringing me into the outlet. spastic hah.

got home completed one grid of my sketch and here i am blogging, blah. shiqian finished hers and i still left like 5 grids to go? nvm, at least it looks realistic and up to my standard. damnit, shiqian's one is damn cool and nice. and i got one more artwork to embark on and i left one artproject with one corner unfinished! shikes, i've better find some time to complete them this week.

and thanks yousi&shuyi for saying im cool and stylo! love it. kinda sad cuz yousi got some people after her and shuyi got practically everyone heads over heels with her, and i hate tough competition, so i'll hope you'll stay as my platonic girlfriends :D

OHYA.

someone sms-ed me a easter wish, who in the world are you? don't gimme all the intelligent retaliations after like 5min of thinking after every witty sms from me, the Sage. xD

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thankyou Jesus Christ(:

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he told me one night when i was asleep, "Girl, if i ever left, forget me and be happy."
i told him one night when he was asleep, "Boy, if i ever left, forgive me and be happy."

forgive&forget, a perfectmatch.

mybloggercode

2006-04-15T11:39:00.000+08:00

wassup people.

i got a blogger code and it's:

B9 d++ t- k+ s+ u f++ i+ o++ x- e+ l+ c

i think it's kinda cool! :D

lag

2006-04-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

i was napping the whole morning, and it continued at 3.
wanted to wake up at 4 to go for evening service, but in the end, slept through it and felt too sick to leave the house.

blah.

anw just realised besides sorethroat and flu, i am having hell out of a throbbing headache.

andand,

i practically spent the whole day sleeping la, but can't blame me, imma sick patient, i need loads of rest.

ohyaaa,

i don't have anything on with jianxiong la. -.- can't squadmates just talk? gee.. people in the world think too much.

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blog hopped quite abit today, and i realised how people are getting depressed over certain stuff, that would, in time to come, affect me quite abit.

then just look forward to many long posts from me, that's rather saddistic, or not. =)

simplicity(:

2006-04-14T09:43:00.000+08:00

woke up 2 hours ago and im sitting down here blogging.

i actually slept at 2am, after washing my clothes and shoes and packing up the big tray of rice and then settling down, to watch dachangjin (not the one on tv, i borrowed the vcds), and slept at 2am.

wanna know smth?

i was the last one being left behind at ECP, teachers even left and where's the whole thing about we will take care of your children? gee, if my mum didn't come 10min earlier, i would have broken a law. what the hell man.

anyway, dunman high had their sports meet yesterday too.

so..

i went to school with my incredible hair and contacts in a flashy red SC shirt and school skirt, carrying bags of stuff for bbq, though not alot.

then got down the bus, saw the 4 crazy people, and they were super AA, screaming and shouting away like nobody's business. (haha. see who's the one being AA)

then got into school, yaolv said i needn't come cuz there was no call for me yesterday night, er.. then i kinda sianed, cuz i wanted to rest at home and sleep, i was like sick with flu, damnit.

anyway, received quite alot of first reactions from buddies about my hair. i wanna list them out, quite fun! :D

1) mummy: NOT LIKE BOY WHAT!
2) granny: WAH NICE! SUNSHINE er.. GIRL!
3) yousi: OMG! you cut your hair (and loads of screamings and AA actions)
4) shuyi: you cut your hair?
5) junhao: did you go to the barber or what? or did you cut it yourself?(pls la, ur hair sucks)
6) eugene: *laughs*
7) elizabeth: karmen! you look different.
8) a few other SCs: you cut your hair?!
9) LiLi: where's your specs? -.-
10) mdmloh: karmen, you cut your hair?!
11) mrteo: you cut your hair ar?
12) felicia: you cut your hair? quite nice leh..
13) siyi: lolol! you cut your hair! look like the person from the lawyer show leh!
14) weiwei: omg! your hair is horrible!
15) tsuhsiang: (oops if i didn't get your name right) shuai4! (:D imhappy!)
16) leelaoshi: gai3 bian4 xing2 xiang4 ah?
17) shiying: karmen! you really look like bae yong jun(argh fck, i don't give a shit how to spell his name) now!
18) jiale: you cut your hair?!
19) some people: i like your hair!
20) leeying: cool.
21) someone: cute.
22) someone: nice.
23) someone: why cut your hair?! i think you'll look better with a woman hairstyle. (what?! long hair with a short ponytail ah? damnit, no, that's for girls, imma half.)
24) someone: imba! (kill you if i rmbr who you are)
25) someone: i lubbeee it!

hahas, that's all i can recollect. :DDD

anw sports meet was DAMN GAY. i was shouting away like a crazy woman with a weird hairstyle. and my cracked voice owe it to that. but nevertheless, it was worth it, DUNMAN HIGH WON THE CHEERING COMPETITION LEH! hahas yay! ((:

and yufen got 2nd for her field event, damn cool.

then left for the unit bbq, with a cracked voice, dehydrated me and a tired mind.

went there, had a sandcastle making competition, kinda disappointed that we didn't win cuz our were more like sandcastles and pretty. gee, nvm, im happy as i am.

then the ball games. i love it, cuz it was quite cool. played with sec1s and i got to play with a few juniors and squadmates i particularly liked, heh. then VERY CUTE LEH! chenteck and jiateck were like the best players! woohoo! i knew they were the pro ones, then when two of them blocked me, super cute la! i just raise up my hand and they start interlocking their small arms into my big ones -.-

and jiateck even hugged zhanjie to get the ball! OMG! haha.

though we lost, i enjoyed the game la, i think my squadmates were very cute in handling the juniors blocking them. and i like people with feng1du4 , those that won't argue over too minute stuff, so juniors that i played with, WELL DONE! i like you. xD

then had a toast. i went with the rest to take the cups and drinks. then i ran back first, a few girls were like "so man ah.." =D heh, i shy la!

had a toast, but didn't really YAMSENG at all cuz i didn't have any voice.

and the bbq started, went to sit with jianxiong at the stone bench facing the sea and had quite a good talk, relaxed me a little and put me in quite a better mood ba, was quite sian over the problems. thanks jianxiong.

but incidents happened like the "diandengpao" stuff, which is damn lame. then peiting ma'am and xuanjie sir went to take photos and xiner ma'am came over and said loudly: "Why got 2 guys sitting here doing nothing one? *look at me* OH, IT'S A GIRL AH.. "

lolol. i like my hairstyle, at least im safe from rape. ((:

then after feeling better, went to help bbq the food, tgt with junjie and yushang. quite fun though. hee. and another time that i relaxed quite abit.

then i got sian again, can't blame me cuz i wasn't feeling well.

total amt of food i ate during bbq: 2 fishballs(out of 3 that yushang offered to jiaxiong and me.)

and im glad i didn't eat more, i desperately need my voice on monday and tuesday and friday. argh.

the clearing up took quite long, because we were still bbqing stuff. won't comment too much lest i get arrowed for talking too much when im not the one doing anything, because seriously, there are problems.

and went back home.

heard shuyi and weicong downstairs and just waved blindly outside the window, and i was taking out my contacts la, not washing my face. -__-||

so there, im up now. gonna finish up all that i need to complete.

and ciaos.

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good friday's today.
thankyou.

handsome geek

2006-04-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

I CUT MY HAIR! and i think im handsome. (:

anyway bought some stuff today, and i got inspired to do something. and i did it! okay that's nothing much, but i gotta say smth.

there's plenty of names and stuff to get right by monday 1.30pm.
there's plenty of paragraphs to memorise by monday morning.
there's plenty of words i have to come up to form a speech soon.
there's plenty of work i have to finish.

EE YIKES.

i feel sort of free now? i mean the 1year passed, and it's an anniversary for us. but we decided to have fun :D i enjoyed myself today, thanks.

and so it's back to ME, ME and more ME.

onecat was preaching to me yesterday night about how i should put my problems away and look on ahead with a positive attitude, and i shouldn't drown myself with self pity, and think i'm the only one with problems.

well, i don't self pity myself. because if i did, i'll probably never even live till this day. there's just a few words to sum it all up.

everyone's life is different and you won't understand anything unless you experienced it before.

just leave me to rot la.

2006-04-11T19:46:00.000+08:00

im having a sorethroat, and it's getting from bad to worse.

coughcough. im not feeling so good :(

i need my voice man! i can't lose it anytime now! shyt. i must make sure we can not go back with hand empty empty.. and i don't want to lose the chance to talk :DDD

im so damned happy because my class was in first position for the top class challenge. that just says how bonded we are. :-) 3 cheers for 2j yeah! hahas!

anw, the japs are gone, but the auzzies are here, and we're gonna have a bbq with them on thursday. it's weird. ONLY SOME of them hosted the npcc cadets, some don't even know what's npcc :| oh well nvm, at least i met some of them already and talked to them. they're rather nice to talk to.. yay?

anw got a attack or smth during chinese lesson, my body was kinda numb and freezing. sighsigh, thanks eleanor for your rather tiny jacket :)

and i'm beginning to get second thoughts about whether i could still pass my tests if i continue my "happy-go-lucky" behaviour. gee, im feeling scared. bla, im gonna buck up and study already, cuz i know i can.

loads of projects due next week, 2 tests next week, and art work needs to be handed up this sunday. and there's high praise this saturday, ah, pon or not to pon? aiya, i'll pon and rest at home la.

i'm not going to make myself go crazy by knowing that i can pass if i study and revise, but fail due to not studying and revising at all.

guess it's all up to me to decide whether i would prefer to stay happy, no more accomodating others' crappy and childish actions, i'll do whatever i believe is right. i'm born to be slow, and that's how it is. :D dont like me ah, shoo shoo go away.

2006-04-08T09:08:00.000+08:00

several assignments for me to complete today, and i want to.

- Geography Task Sheet Complete the table; due 120406.
- LOTR movie review/analysis Character analysis; due 180406.
- History Assignment Journalist Write-up; due 180406.
- Geography Test On GR, GM, Wet Rice cultivation; on 2003406.
- Science Project Toy-making; due 240406.
- History Debate Raffles or Faquhar?; due 240406-280406.
- Language Arts Assignment Poster and Letter; due 280406.
- ACC Assignment Find a song to go with Song Ci; on Week 5.
- Neverending Story Read this book asap; due when we finish LOTR.

plus

- Chinese Worksheet
- Revision for Mathematics
- Study for nwg test
- complete 2 overdue art projects (shit.)

thanks to my class blog. i'm gonna finish most of them by today. BY HOOK OR BY CROOK.

(there's speechday rehearsal on mon, history field trip in the morning on thur, then sports day then unit bbq, and then there's church on the weekend. ahhhhh! alright, im gonna be so busy)

what i love

2006-04-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

i love some people and some things and some events and some memories.

i still love the friendships i had.

i still love the flaws i have.

i still love who, what and how i am.

no, this ain't any sign of a positive change in attitude, it's just another add on to say that i have managed to find another reason to live.

oh thankyou Lord, enlightening me after my many prayers.

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going to church this sunday, and then GOSH, probably again on good friday and GOSSHHH, again on easter sunday.

with who?
with my mum!

goodness gracious, she just told me she have been attending services for many months, without me knowing!anyway i'm looking forward to it. i'm keen to see how my mum manage to stay awake during the service, because she's been flaunting how attentive she is. and ahhh, she might make me join youth there if i am happy there... AHHHH.

okay, christians or non-christians. i know i sound like i'm dreading services with what i wrote above, but seriously, you can't blame me. it's all because the person i'm going to church with.. yeah. haha. i'll find a way to take things easily.

time to read up on my Bible before i totally forget everything..

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i'm not going to complain about the workload i have right now, because half of it could have been done, but i just dragged it till today. and i'm deadbeat now, so i'm gonna go oinkoink and do it tmr, before i head out to the new Cathay cinemas to catch Ice Age 2, i hope i can catch a midnight one. but probably not.. because of church the following day. GEE, I'M GOING TO A NEW CHURCH AGAIN LA.

alright nvm. at least after that it's art lesson.

NONO. IT'S NOT NVM. SHITE.

that reminds me i got a long day on sunday.

eee. i dont like my timetable.

so i'll shut with my rumblings, and off to do my homework.

i <3 you, and i declared it on the class whiteboard :D

just stopping by

2006-04-05T20:25:00.000+08:00

since my other blog is in the same account as this,
i just decided to stop by and update y'all on some stuff.

life has been pretty bad lately.
there ain't any interesting stuff to make me think about when i'm alone at home or when i just isolate myself away from the others.

even then, when i isolate myself,
i feel not loneliness, but an emptiness instead.
because loneliness got a feeling, but emptiness aches beyond imagination.

though i know i would love to bathe myself in company,
and be a good and kind soul to everyone,
i can't help but be mean to get away,
because i just have a bad mood everyday.

sometimes i know that even though i have friends,
many are just passerbys,
some seem close, but they're yet so far.
i just noticed how outcasted i am.

many people, who should be the closest.
they say, 4 years together,
a strong bond will form.
but i don't know.
i doubt i'll feel complete with them.

i used to think,
they were the ones who would be my everything.
i was wrong,
and they were right,
they unite but i only flight.

when were the days i should have cherished,
my happiness and joy and every smile.
here are the days that never seem to shine,
add on the rain,
i do have a gloomy stormy life.

if i were to torture myself,
no one would really care,
would they or would they not?
perhaps they wouldn't even know,
as i was long far gone.

so since i'm here,
i just want all to hear,
im not a nice person you see,
as im mean, selfish and hopeless.

so hate me all you want,
allow me and do isolate me from the rest.
for i have never felt such a great need,
to pain and to bleed.

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i would doubt that even if i write these here, people would come and read.
for these blog is long dead and pessimistic,
not suitable for the optimistic people to read,
some are perhaps to pre-occupied with their merry-making to bother.

o how lonely a soul
o how contented she is

for she got what she wants,
being blown away,
from all the rest.

(and please, why the fuck would i be jealous of happy people)

2006-04-02T20:40:00.000+08:00

oooooh. this blog is deaaad.
deaaar. the tagboard is deaaad.
aaahhh. everything is screwed.

i think i'm gonna take a break blogging here for a while and concentrate on my other blog. if you guys can navigate there, good for you. hahas..

it's nothing good.
it's nothing bad.

~~just an INNOCENT and a SHY girl blogging.~~

i'm gonna LMAO if i'm ever described like that. haha.

zipping up, flush and out-

what the hell

2006-04-02T09:20:00.000+08:00

what the hell.

MOT is hijacked. somebody hacked inside their blog and obviously changed the blogskin and made it as her own.

screw her, damn her.

there, another read is gone. nb!

i'm fcked up over that. jeers to you woman, no, bitch.

[EDIT]

OH WHAT THE HELL AGAIN.
the xiaoshan thing was simply an aprils' fool joke, pring is damn good, real good. and so off to change the url to museum of tits.

[/EDIT]

promise me you'll change

2006-03-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

i'll take my time and just jot down whatever i want.

one more thing

sometimes when i walk onto the streets,
i see girls that i thought matched your description,
are they who i thought they are,
the ones who cling on to you like how a baby monkey do?

sometimes i wonder whether there can be trust,
i see guys that i thought matched your description,
and if they are who they are,
are they the ones who influenced you to do what a wild boar would?

sometimes i wonder whether if you would be okay,
i see you and it did not match the description i had,
are you still who you used to be,
or were you always what you were?

in case one day,
i might see you and say,
oh gosh what a change,
would you slap me on my face,
or would you frown and say there was no other way?

and if you would do the former,
i would cry and let you walk away,
but if you done the latter,
i'll sit by your side once more,
and give you a shoulder to cry on.

many days and many nights,
i wondered how it would turn out if everything was alright,
i guess nothing can be perfect,
or i would not have any heartache,
would you still return to the person you once were long time ago
if i went on my knees and begged you to?

the one, nice and charming,
that one, dashing and wonderful,
just one, gentlemanly and civilised,
you're one of the smartest guys that ever existed.

i hope you'll read this,
and tell me what you think,
it was never suppose to be like that,
though it might be none of my concern,
but i do remember the promise you wanted me to make.

to care, to cherish and to love each other.

i can't love and cherish you, anymore.
but to care,
probably yes.

you were always there when i needed to lean on someone and just cry.
you allowed me to drip tears on your shirt and you don't mind.
you made me strong, you made me happy,
you made me a positive soul.

and yet, guilt builds up, i'm didn't do anything for you.
give me this last chance,
before i bade you farewell forever,
i want you to know that you will always be the star in my memories.

just don't do these to yourself at the lost of --, please.

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enough of the romantic crap. =X anw, i ponned alot of recordings for the 50th anniversary song. aaah. but i didn't know about the first two recordings and the third one, i think, for today, i didn't go cuz i wasn't prepared.

anyway, the unit outing proposal is driving me nuts, but i can't imagine all of us, carrying food and drinks to jurong stadium, then travelling all the way back to ECP, i think by then, all our food and drinks would have finished along the way. it'll be really tiring. can we change? :-(

my history essay is overdue.. blaaa. blaaaaaaaa. ok, i left a few more paragraphs to complete.

and mryeo is so cool. thanks for the ticket! GOODNESS GRACIOUS, i'm happy i can go. hahas(:

and malay + speaking lessons today were duper funny, probably because we were much more enthusiastic.

satu hari, nama saya foo binte mhmd. AHAH.
(mp, i still can't forget this mistake i made!)

B-E-A-C-H
B-I-T-C-H

come, articulate the words with me.. do they sound alike?! LOL

and then, we remember the music lesson by sayid, not kew.

PINE-AP-PLE, AP-PLE!

he's sibeh lame siah.

and mayping,

1 2 3 4 5 6 CHA CHA CHA !

let's do it more often, exercise!

anyway a quiet cry for a change of seating plan please! LET ME SIT AT THE FRONT LA! i'm shorter than prizzy, why i sit behind her?! nofairnofair, no wonder prizzy head always block my view la!

"prizzy, siam your head, thanks."
"prizzy, move a little bit please, thanks."
"shu1lv4! yi2 guo4 qu4 yi1 dian3 la4!"

and if she can't hear me, i would be simply bobbing my head up and down. and then i would come to see steffi's head! ahhhh... cannot stand my place. =(

anyway today afterschool, stayed back to finish maths homework and do the chinese worksheet. also, chatted with chaojie about lots of stuff la. actually i think chaojie is very nice and cool leahs, just that he finds too much love in being loud and crushing stuff. he's strong man, if you guys know what he's done. oooh, and chaojie moved house, so sad siah. no more neighbourhood classmate. chaojie is really nice la, there's too much misunderstandings about him. really hope everyone can get to know him siah. :]

then went home with chaojie, michelle and esther. and esther jim sui ah! taught me some teochew. though i forgot alot already. ahh boo.

and esther, i shall teach you cantonese in exchange! =D

i'm quite happy today la, many nice things happen. and sorry ruixiang, made you wait for the ppl so long. and sorry to alot of pple, for the delays i and others caused.

there is no word to describe you anymore. worst than selfish. sigh.

so much to do.. so little time..

2006-03-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

[EH HEYHEY! i finished some work! not bad leh!]

oooh. i got loads to do leh.

~~i got the history essay to start on and finish.~~
~~i got the geography debate to prepare on.~~
~~i got the history analysis to complete.~~
~~i got the chinese worksheet to complete.~~
~~i got the maths worksheet to finish (supposed to be yesterday but i can't find my question paper!)~~
~~i got the BP test on thursday and i desperately need to study for it.~~
i got the LOTR movie analysis worksheet to complete.
i got the forum thing to type it out nicely.
~~i got the proposal to do.~~

i got so much to do.. i shan't continue.

so judging by this workload, you won't hear from me for a few hours or so.

i'm a total retard..

2006-03-28T00:11:00.000+08:00

i'm feel retarded because no1, i messed my uniform during art. and i'm terribly gloomy over that. sorry to sean, mayping, kelly, prizzy and ck for my bad mood throughout the class. sorry! :-(

then no2, i feel retarded because i completely did not eat anything during recess, i only ate cup noodles for dinner yesterday night la. i'm mentally insane.

then no3, i swept my hand through my hair when i was changing into the new uniform, and a bunch of hair landed on my hand and floor. i swore it isn't hair loss, it is some sort of disease, it must be.

then no4, the forum was quite ok. but i felt retarded sitting there looking and talking to people who wouldn't care much about what was going on. especially one who sat at the front row, with legs right open, snoring away, NOT even opening his eyes. but regarding the forum, thanks benjamin and weijie! you two were great lah! :-)

then no5, i spoke on the phone for about 10seconds, only to realise that i hung up on the other person. :-( i am retarded larh!

but afterschool, came home and did some stuff, read a few articles on the magazines. and shuting or tingpei or zhiying, if you see this, there is one article on teens about what we were discussing -.-

anw, sometimes i don't understand some people who just make me comprehend what they say and what i don't understand. i mean, aren't you suppose to help me or smth? sighs, i wish someone would show me the wonderful big light! :D

there is plenty to be done. and yet, i rather blog than sleep.

KARMEN, LEARN TO SLEEP. =)

new skin.. love it?

complimented

2006-03-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

omg. someone complimented me today! omgomgomg.
and i totally did not expect the compliment coming from that someone. omgomgomg!

hahas. or rather, kinda expected.

im sucha nice girl.

hahas. junjie&ruixiang don't like the skin, cuz it's too "not-them", because it's also simply "too-them".

:D LOL art was cool today. seriously.

:| kayaking

2006-03-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

kayaking was fun luhh. although tiring.. but i don't like kayaking with so many people.

yuck. not kayaking for a year really do me harm. i shall go kayak often, even if i don't get the 1star thing.

:-( so disappointed with myself for forgetting all the skills i learnt, at least 4 instructors coached me for the times i went kayaking. 1 even kayak with me out to sea! sighsighsighsigh la!

but anyway, the orientation was quite ok la, i mean, i know liao. i just don't know about the way of carrying, cuz i never carry one ma, everytime the person tell me leave it there, ahaha.

then paddlepaddle quite fun la, but i really lost touch with everything, then i was the second one to capsize. wth. but i know the reason la, sianzZZ. thenthen, after lunch, i was somemore the one who got stuck in the mud, worst la! legs stuck, and somemore sucked me in and tide push me made me fall down sit on the mud, wth. then my legs were EEEEEEEww.

overall, quite cute and fun la! love it loads siah! im gonna make sure i don't forget anything, ever again. because if i forget this, i might as well forget how to swim. (cuz i alr forgot how to play the *****, and i'm totally unhappy about that)

sighs. sighs. sighs.

K BYE! dont prank call me too much!

[ argh gaga, the housewarming i go there eat only la, wl. then ask me whether wanna go bball, i say no la, cuz i want go home. wl, if no hmwk, i surely go play la. wlwlwl, wasted. sochio&soshuai la! ]

:-(

2006-03-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

i'm damn freaked out

i happily went for activity, feeling damn tired but ok.

i happily drill, but then, i just couldn't drill well. i tell you why later.

i happily went for pt, but then, my body just breakdown and i puked when changing. i tell you what later.

i happily went to kfc, but then, on the way and there, disturbed by the 0.5 boys.

i happily went home, only to see the madman strutting around.

i happily reached home, only to enter the bathroom, take off my socks, look at them, stare at them, and then go shh-shh, then stand up, then turn around, then puke again, then turn around, then i smelt the "aroma" of the old men's urine from downstairs, then turn around, puke again, then go and bathe, then stare at my toes, then bathebathe, then suddenly i touch my toes.

WHY?

10 of them were all RED la! wl! ALL CRAMP LA! wl! ALL DAMN NUMB LA. wl! ALL NO FEELING LA. wl!

damnit lar. then i just hand them in midair, PAIN LIKE SIAO LA. wl!

damnit lar, i sleep at 3am wake up at 6am, can die lah.

"yes sir and ma'am, i am very very tired."

what you expect la?!
now still have to do homework.

schoolwork so much undone.
sc work i dont even know how to contact mdmloh now.
housework i dont even have strength to help out.

all i'm doing is just slacking here typing a nonsense post and i wish to get into a coma or become a vegetable or smth. life is not beautiful, life is not precious, life is hard to live, especially how you see the world from my view.

i'll kill you before i leave, because you cause too much terror to this world. seriously, i just don't want your to make fun of what i write here.

don't understand anything, don't say anything.
think you understand, don't say you understand.
because in the end, you don't understand.

so i'm not feeling well and i think i'm going to have a body breakdown soon.
just hope i enter clinic, and not hospital.

my ribs are hurting like how my shoulder does. i hope i have dengue.